Herpes or friction rash? PLEASE HELP

Hi,

I'm really stressed out right now and just feels like my life is crashing down. Last week a new boyfriend and I had sex - for me being my first time ever. I was nervous and so did get dry a couple of times but we continued to go at it. I was really tight - as it was my first time - and it took a while for him to even get inside. He did wear a condom although the foreplay beforehand he did rub himself against my vulva. I bled as it was my first time so I don't know if a cut was made and bled.

It was painful afterwards and i put it down to it being my first time. That evening we did it again - but for a shorter amount of time as i was in that much pain - but this time he didn't wear a condom, and again i was dry down there. Then it was really painful down there. Blisters started to appear and i had hoped they were just friction blisters due to the sex I had. He has told me he is clean and got screened last month - but I've read they don't test for herpes unless your showing signs. I'm petrified and have cried nearly every day with the pain - as I later found out that there is an infection, which can explain the discharge. I have had two observation exams and they both said it may be herpes....my life stopped. They did do a swab and I'm just waiting on the results but I have cried everyday about it and I've been pushing my boyfriend away even though I do really want to be with him. He did a blood test and we're also waiting for that.

I feel like it may be worth mentioning that my vagina is sensitive - just putting on a pad with a scent can trigger a sore-like reaction.

I'm only 20 and I'm really scared that I have just messed up my life!

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