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Hi, I suffer with severe anxiety and depression.

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kirsty19944
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Hi, I suffer with severe anxiety and depression I've been suffering with these problems for 9 years.

My depression makes me feel useless and unwanted I get very emotional aswell. It all started when I was a child when I was horribly raped and the trauma I had to go through it was outrageous. I was also left stranded in the middle of London and I had no where to go and bad things happened to me.

From the age of 15 I was put on mirgazapine 15mg for my depression and 10mg olanzapine for my anxiety. I'm now 23 and I still suffer with these problems. It's very hard for me, I wake up and I feel like I can't face the world like I don't want to live anymore, it's like 1million things rushing in my head all at once if that makes sense. I'm sorry to offload all of my problems, I would just like people to see what I'm going through. I also suffer with severe chest pains and panic attacks I have bad sweats and I always feel nervous around people other feels like I'm just a joke. I have no friends as the others my friends I have is on social media. Its because everyone I get close to thinks I'm weird as sometimes I don't explain things right and I don't know how to handle situations well. The medication that I take dosent really help me and I've been to the doctors and I've tried to explain how I feel but it just seems like they don't want to help me so at the moment I'm still stuck in this bubble where I fell like I can't escape. I only have my mom aswell and shes got her own life so has most of her time with her partner. I'm sorry to be such a pain, I just wanted to share my feelings and my problems with other people to try and make them understand and see what I'm going through.

Thank you for taking the time to read my post.

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  • Humanity17013
    Humanity17013 kirsty19944

    Posted

    Hi kirsty. First of all i m sorry to hear that you are rapped in childhood. I can understand this ancident may ruined your childhood.

    I understand 100 percent your situation. So you dont need to worry. I m 37 year old same feeling and problems with me. I m checked by 24 doctors and they said its anxiety. I also feel pain in chest . Dizzling tringling sweating light hearted.

    Its feel life nothing in world for us. No happyness for us. We feel we are alone. But this is right . World is full of selfish people. No one has time to listen others. No body cares other only those can understand your feeling who pass through this situation.

    You need loyal and caring people around you. I think you want to say much more but you can not explain it. You can not know how to express your feelings. You are a good girl i believe. Your mom has to care about you. But she is busy in her personal life. You have only friends on social media that is not enough. Social media is making more people mentely ill. We much have loyal friends in real life. With whom we meet. Do lunch dinner with them. Hangout all togather etc. Laptop internet life making us more ill. You just need good friends more than medication. ALLAH BLESS YOU. You no neex to worry. You have no desease. Its just depression but i m with you. So you no need to worry. I understand you very deeply. So next time any peoblem you have share it. I will try to solve it and try to give you help as much i can. Now you be happy be brave be possitive and think you have a man with you. You are not alone...take care

  • lindie19788
    lindie19788 kirsty19944

    Posted

    How heart breaking. Reaching out for help is a massive step. Have you explained to your Doctor exactly how your feeling? They should be helping you. Offering you counselling and help. Don't give up. There is help out there for you. I had hypnosis and it helped me so much. Hang in there. Wishing you all the luck in the world x

  • denise92859
    denise92859 kirsty19944

    Posted

    Feel so sorry for you ,you have been through so much for someone so young .You need to keep going back to your doctor who should make sure you get professional help . I really do hope that things work out for you and you make friends and wake up every morning looking forward to your day (it’s not a lot to ask ,for any of us )take care and good luck x
  • JayDee21
    JayDee21 kirsty19944

    Posted

    What a horrible horrible situation.. i really feel for you! Im a 22 year old man and i cant imagine what you're going through right now even though I suffer from anxiety and had panic attacks in the past.

    Have you spoken to your doctor about any therapy/councilling? Theres no harm in trying it.

    I hope everything works out for you, feel free to message me if you want to.

    All the best

  • priscilla_66015
    priscilla_66015 kirsty19944

    Posted

    So sorry to hear about what happened to you and all what you are going threw.but thank God you have your mom still here .but maybe try going to church that would be a place to go and pray and maybe meet some people.i pray all works out for you 
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