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Hi everyone I've been suffering with anxiety and health anxiety and panic disorder for a few months now and I'm struggling so bad! I lost my nan who was my mother figure a year ago and only recently major anxiety issues have come flooding in I don't know if that was the trigger or If it's other things. I've been to the doctors I explained how I felt and got purscribed diazepam 2mg and fluoxetine. I took them once and had a major panic attack because I convince myself the side effects will kill me or I'll be allergic to something in them so I can't take any medication other than kalms even on them I panic and they don't really work. I had an ecg and one blood test and they came back clear I also had a second ecg when I had cold symptoms and convinced myself it was something sinister so had another major panic attack and called an ambulance after googling my symptoms and it came back heart disease it was the worst feeling I've ever had I was certain I was going to die and I'm only 18 years old. Everyday I wake up anxious, I have anxiety attacks all through the day and constant health anxiety any slight tingle or sensation that don't feel right I'm in a state. Then in the nights I usually have panic attacks going to sleep thinking I won't wake up I try to monitor my every heart beat and it feels abnormal all the time I often feel like my heart skips a beat and it frightens me so much along with the racing heart, sweats (hot and cold) shaking and constant dizziness and blurry vision my chest also feels so tight and like I can't breathe in! It's taking over my life I never see my friends anymore because I don't know when a bad one is going to strike and it's hard because in high school I loved my life I was so outgoing wanting to party and be out but now I'm even scared of alcohol as I feel not in control of my body as it is and to go from being that type of person to this one I don't know what to do with myself I feel like I'm loosing sanity. I live with my boyfriend and feel like he gets annoyed with it and misses the old me like I do but he of course doesn't understand as he doesn't suffer from it. My biggest fear is dying and I constantly feel on the verge of death it's awful! Plus my family network isn't strong. Also I was wondering if it's possible to get a brain scan off the nhs as that might help a bit if I know there's no Tumour? I'm sorry this message is so long I just don't know where else to turn! I'd be so grateful for any reply x
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