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Hit a brick wall in anorexia recovery

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helena1995
helena1995

Hey everyone! I'm new here, and I've been suffering from anorexia for a few years now and have been in recovery since the beginning of March.

I've gained to a bmi of 15.6, but now I feel like there's nothing wrong with that and I no longer need to be in treatment.

Though I feel really awful all of the time with I'm sick of and want it to change, and I know I need to gain weight for that to happen.

I decided before that If I was To decide I couldn't deal with recovery that I wouldn't let myself go back down the spiral I'd just end my life, as I cannot live like that anymore, and right now I just feel like I'm not sick ebough and anorexia is how my life must be, and if that's the case then I don't want it.

But commiting suicide is not what I want to do as it would destroy my friends and family.

I'm imagining pretty much everyone hits this place during recovery, how do you carry on? Please tell me it gets easier...?

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  • kirsty32448
    kirsty32448 helena1995

    Posted

    Hiya i am currenlty in recovery from annorexia aswel and i find it really hard at times when im having a low/bad day. I have worked out that if i take my aner out on something this helps me and i needed to cry it out. I dont know if it becomes easier as i still find it hard but once i have ha my outburst i seem to start my day again
  • lily72326
    lily72326 helena1995

    Posted

    Hello, sorry to hear things have been hard lately.  As you're weight increases it is scary because the anorexia will beat you up about it. But I found with me that as time went on  I cared less about my weight. Life is so much more fun, interesting,happy being a healthy weight. You've got to keep this in mind if you feel you don't want to gain anymore. I found it helpful to make a list of things that I could do once I was a healthy weight. This really made keep going when it got tough. You can have a happy, wonderful life without anorexia. Picture it like- you've got to get over this hurdle(the anorexia) to have the life you want. And you can get over it. Sometimes it will feel like you will never get better and it's hopeless trying but believe me. It will get better. You are strong- you can beat anorexia. You are stronger than you think, sometimes it takes hard challenges to find your strength. The way to get through this hard patch is to keep going. Like Winston Churchill said,' if you're going through hell, keep going'. You will beat anorexia. sending you all my love and best wishes for your recovery . Lily xxxx. 

     

    • kirsty32448
      kirsty32448 lily72326

      Posted

      I have read this reply and it has helped me a lot as i just got weighd and have put on 1 pound!! and feel like my life is now over!! but that just reminded me that when i get bk to a noramly weight i can go back to the gym and playing the sport i used to like
    • lily72326
      lily72326 kirsty32448

      Posted

      I'm glad I could help. Congradulations on gaining 1 pound. You are closer now to doing the stuff you want to.And your life isn't over,a new exciting happy one is beginning.Sending you love, Lily xx
    • kirsty32448
      kirsty32448 lily72326

      Posted

      im just soo scred thta once i get back to a healthy weight how will my body stop putting the weight on?
    • lily72326
      lily72326 kirsty32448

      Posted

      I had the same worry. Basically if the energy going in your body equals the energy your body is using up, your weight will be stable. It might take a bit of adjustment as your body works out how much it needs. Expect a bit of fluctuations, sometimes you weigh less, sometimes you weigh more. This is completely normal and natural. It may be scary for if you sometimes do fluctuate in weight and weigh a bit more than you did last week, but this is normal. Your weight will balance out and even as your body gets used to being a healthy weight. Sending love, lily xxxx
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