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So Saturday is usually my wake up with a bit of excitement as it would be the thought that it's my night I get to binge drink. I would wait all week & binge on Saturday, Sunday & Monday & the cycle would repeat every week. This will be my third Saturday & weekend of no drinking - I am 15 days no booze ( although generally I would not drink Tues through Fri ) but this morning I woke up thinking what have I got to look forward to? I feel a bit lost & low. Yes I have a nice life with my husband, child & dog so why do I feel like this? Last weekend was easier but I am missing the looking forward to the booze to the warm feeling it gives me. The high I felt from not drinking has lowered for sure.
Something I know is I will not go & buy a bottle of booze & secretly drink it like I usually would of - that is over. I just think of my husband & child & say to myself you can't let them down. I am hoping this will pass that this is just today a bad day. The not looking forward to it is the part that is getting to me so once I've hit drink O'clock & I'm not drinking it may subside.
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