Hiv testing

No it was just this one time literally for 2 minuts then stopped to put on a condom the clinic said hiv can be tested at 4 weeks so i went at 6 weeks and it was negative along woth all other tests i had done. So do you think this is ok

Yes, that ok. Negative

I went and got tested at 6 weeks vecause i had a really bad cold that i could not shift i have had no other symptoms i have had a few spots on my chest but thats it i dont think that is a symptom but reaults cane back negative at 6 weeks i have not been woth anybody since and would not do that untill i am sure im ok. The clinic said hiv is tested at 4 weeks anything else is 2 weeks all results were negative how reasuring is this please.

It sounds reassuring but it also sounds like you are not convinced by the results.  Maybe you need a 2nd opinion to be thoroughly convinced?  Maybe you need some consuling vs just a test.  There can be trauma around living with the possibility.  Does the clinic offer some consuling services on this subject?

I dont no i didnt ask its just playing on my mind

OK, you brought up the magic 4 letter word, "mind".  It sounds like you have a sense that there are real things that happen in the physical world and then there is the theater that happens in the mind.  Maybe in this case you are believing more in the theatrical performance in you head.

It might be good for you to check out "mindfulness' practices.  There are a ton of them.  They all boil down to developing the skills to separate the here and now and the theater in the head.  Could help with your anxiety issues.  

Thank you for the reply i will look in to it but do u think the test at 6 weeks is accurate.

It really don't matter what I think.  It seems, based on the results, that you are ok.  But, I feel that your brain is in overdrive and you are listening to everything it tells you.  I have the same kind of brain but have learned what to listen to or what not too.  

Someone I like is a guy in Ireland.  Google Padraig O'Morain and subscribe to his "Daily Bell" of good grounding thoughts to start your day.  He is not the celebrity type but promotes a real authentic practical mindfulness practice whether you are sitting still or running a marathon..

An overactive mind is great if you are walking through a jungle inhabited by hungry lions and tigers.  But, I think you are driving yourself crazy by thinking about something too much.  But, it seems like you can not stop ruminating about the fact that you might have something.  Guess what?  Been there, done that.  Maybe I still do sometime but I know when I'm doing it and have some skills to short it and return back to a neutral position.

I wish I could tell you more but your search on this subject will deliver the goods.  Padraig O'Morain is not going to rob you blind vs. deliver a lot of good stuff for you to ponder and hopeful use. He's just one of many out there.

 

Well ive been today for my 3 month test.