Hopelessness (anxiety)
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I'm feeling depressed. Tired of living with mental health problems. I feel like no one understands me including myself. I can't get any joy out of things anymore. I feel like it can't be worse then this.
I've very severe social anxiety. I can't leave my house anymore and having normal contact with others. I don't have anything in my life anymore. I lost contact with my friends and even meeting with family is super hard. Daily I struggle with myself. I feel like I'm losing control, but actually already had, because look at how messed up my life is. I've got these very paranoid anxiety attacks where I feel very stressed out. Basically daily. Because I'm always struggling with my anxiety. There are no good days. It's just only bad. I almost never can relax, because of my mind that's giving me these constant unpleasant feelings and thoughts. Idk what's wrong with me, but I think it's very bad. I am afraid to see psychologist, because like I said, my social anxiety is so high and I can't leave my house. It's like all the negative stuff has taken over me. I'm questioning myself daily who I actually am and what my purpose is. Idk it anymore. I can't accept myself. I can't accept my life. I don't want to live like this.
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diane98246 Contakt
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Everything sounds very difficult for you, and I'm glad you've chosen to post and describe your situation on this forum. I hope you get lots of help here.
If you have social anxiety, I think it's possible to talk to a licensed therapist online but I'm not sure how much it would cost.
I actually prefer to be alone and enjoy my own company. I hope you can eventually reach this point of being able to enjoy solitude. You need some activities that make you happy.
But if it's socializing that you truly want, then there are therapies and meds to help you with this challenge.
I wish you the best.
Contakt diane98246
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Yeah and it makes you feel very lonely. I find it hard that I never really read a similar story of someone who is stuck in the same situation.
I've got respect that you can enjoy yourself alone. I feel like I need some time alone now and then, but now I'm not enjoying myself at all, probably because I'm alone just all the time. Before I really suffered from anxiety I was enjoying being out. Actually there was almost not a single day that I stayed home a whole day. I was always meeting friends and going out. Now, absolutely nothing.
lee12629 Contakt
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Hi,if you can't leave your house,I believe some doctors will do consultations over the phone. I hope you feel better,I live with anxiety daily,so I understand.
Contakt lee12629
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I believe online therapy isn't common in my country. Perhaps therapy at home, but that will be very difficult.
lee12629 Contakt
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I meant perhaps a doctor could prescribe a med that would allow you to feel good enough to have someone take you to see them
yu69395 Contakt
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Hi
You are not the only one to feel that way.
I burned out from my work....had severe mental breakdown.... severely depressed. Recovery takes forever? That's how i feel right now.
Some people don't have mental illness.
I suffered all my life.
BUT.....a little by a little, I learned how to live with it.
Contakt2 yu69395
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I've seen it multiple times that they learned how to live with it, but what does that really mean? I can't imagine myself living with this whole my life.. Or well, I just can't accept it and I don't think I'll survive that long.
I know there are a lot of people suffering from anxiety, but still I feel lonely. Mostly because of the (extreme) social phobia and all my unpleasant thoughts. I really hate my mindset. I don't love myself in general for having this I see myself as some kind of weirdo sometimes, because of the stuff I experience. I always feel just bad in general (like 24/7) and that is something I didn't read anywhere. I just feel like a big outsider.
yu69395 Contakt2
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Hi
i cannot accept my severe depression /anxiety with dissociation and depersonalization. BUT I cannot get rid of it. So much suffering....I feel how you feel.
hypercat Contakt
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Hi have a look on YouTube as there are lots of videos there about learning to take some control over your anxiety and agoraphobia.
One good thing to try is to start going outside in very small stages, just a few steps at first. Then when you feel the panic taking over stay with the feelings ie feel the fear and do it anyway. Not easy I know but only you can do it. Do you have a family member or a friend who can help? x
hypercat Contakt
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Hi have a look on YouTube as there are lots of videos there about learning to take some control over your anxiety and agoraphobia.
One good thing to try is to start going outside in very small stages, just a few steps at first. Then when you feel the panic taking over stay with the feelings ie feel the fear and do it anyway. Not easy I know but only you can do it. Do you have a family member or a friend who can help? x
Contakt2 hypercat
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Hello, I will. Yesterday I found something interesting on youtube. I don't know if I'm allowed to share links, but perhaps if you're interested I can share it.
Hmm, I don't really know. My problem is that I got these irrational fears and it's a quite large amount. Not being able to go outside is like a consequence of other problems. Especially the social phobia of course, but I don't know if just going outside is going to help that. Yesterday I went outside for a walk and I'm just constant worrying about having to communicate and having anxiety attacks. I don't really know if that belongs to agoraphobia. I often worry if something else is wrong with me, but my mom (where I still live) is sure that it's just anxiety, but on a level where I question everything. Like besides this social phobia I have irrational fears of feeling very uncomfortable by watching (scary) movies, panic of things like coffee and alcohol, but also even tea (lol). And besides all my anxiety I just don't know what I want in life anymore, because everything feels impossible.
Alwaysbekind Contakt
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if you ever need someone to talk to over the phone or even to text, message me ive been that bad its very scary