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how am i going to carry on?

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girl
girl

feeling so low and empty. .had a terrible weekend, got inot a state on fri, police took me home. how stupid. did ring crisis team and spoke to someone but no longer on the list so that was it. Couoldn't face work so canx wkend shifts. forced self to see gp yesterday - didn't want to leave house but have to get better. changed my meds so will see. keep thinking want t o hurt myself, not in the self harm way of old but juumping off bridges type of thing. scary how quick it can all slide away from you. don't know how going to cope, just want to hide and disapear. used to be aggitated but now don't care about anything - feel totally hollow, emotionless. stomach feels like full of lead. don't want to do anything i used to, work fills me with dread. don't know how going to cope over the next few days, especially with the long weekend. sad

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  • shadow
    shadow

    Posted

    Hi girl, sorry u not feein yourself at the moment. Is it possible 2 take some time off work and have some u time even if its doin nothin just 2 give the new meds time 2 work. As 4 the emptyness thats all part of the illness and it will come back (sometimes it can b a side effect of meds). Have some chill out time go 4 along walk in the park, watch your favorite dvds, plug in some music go 4 a cycle ride, do some decorating, i no its hard but we cant let this illness beat us. Have u got any1 u can talk 2, may b ask your gp if they can get u on another program with the crisis team, do u c anybody elese on the mental health team?. It will get better and thnk of this as just a blip and we all have them. Hope u start 2 feel better soon. Sorry i go on a bit dont i but i hope iv been able 2 help. Take care and let us no how u gettin on. :hug: U can do it.
  • shadow
    shadow

    Posted

    Is there any1 who can take some of the preasure of u with the business u have or just slow it down a bit or ask 4 help?. I no its not that easy im in exactly the same boat. I should take some of my own advice but its alwats easier 2 give than take.
  • girl
    girl

    Posted

    Hi shadow. was signed off the cmht months ago. that happened at the time when all other support was taken away (finished my degree) so haven't had anyone 'official' to talk to, although they have messed me up so much in the past not sure if they even do much good anymore. lots of friends went at the same time so although people around i can't talk to many of them. worried that the reason i am feeling so bad is because i felt myself slipping back down so haven't taken on as much work. i don't have the motivation to do anything, in fact most of the time i don't even know why i do it - it isn't like i enjoy it any more.
  • shadow
    shadow

    Posted

    HI girl i dont realy no wot 2 say 2 u only 2 let u no your not on your own Im tryin 2 deal with the death of 3 close friends /reletives in as many months, only yesterday i asked do i realy want this am i in the right job my harts not in it any more or with anything. I have 2 messages on my phone at the moment peopl wanting me to do some outside caterin 4 my own business and 2 top it of i had 2 dismiss my second chef at work so its just me. Y am i doin this not enjoyin it at all but i dont no wot the problem realy is. I spoke 2 my gp and couns and they say not 2 make any rash dis as my head not with it, but that not realy help when i feelin so crap. Sorry not b any more help but if u get any advise plaese share im desperate. U Take care
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