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I've never posted here before but I'm at a loss for what to do with myself. I've always been a very shy person and generally keep myself to myself for as long as I can remember. I've recently graduated uni and moved to a new city and found a new design job - which I do really enjoy.
Lately though it feels like I have no real connections with anyone outside of close family and my boyfriend (he works really long hours and found myself almost relying on him, as he's pretty much the only person in this city that I'm friends with). I live far from family and have always found it hard to make friends and even more so to maintain friendships.. I just feel like this feeling of social anxiety or loneliness always comes back to me and holds me back.
I have housemates (I didn't know them before the house share) but honestly I feel like I'm not worthwhile getting to know, that I don't have anything to give or I'll just distance and shut them out like I usually end up doing.
I feel like quitting and going back home even though that would be a bad option, as I don't want to let my family down.. But I don't know how much longer I can go spending every weekend and evenings in my room alone feeling like this is so pointless.
Thanks, this was difficult to write
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