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Haven't been on here for ages but twice in a week is not good.
I don't know how to put this into words, I don't really know what's going on inside my head but I want to self destruct yet again, but can't explain or know why. trying to put this in writing but nothing is coming my head can't think or process stuff. I don't know if I want to live or die I want to hurt myself but shouldn't cos I'll upset people but I don't know what to do. Get drunk, take drugs can't talk to someone cos I don't know what's going on, try here might help. I feel such a failure but a failure in what I don't know. i'm a mess. Having therapy but dread it, being advised to interact with people as i isolate myself. Do it before I get into a crisis easier said than done. Been keeping busy distracting myself today but this muddle keeps on coming back time and time again. tried writing stuff down but end up staring at a blank page. Sorted more stuff out today threw a lot away I don't know if i am subconciously making plans again. I don;t know whats going on....nothing seems to make sense....listening to music...keep crying maybe go for a walk already tried that once today...sorry for rambling.
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