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When I was 21, when i first realised i had anxiety, i pushed through and said i wont let it beat me, and i was anxiety free after about 2 months. But then such things like noticing a dodgy mole, getting stomach cramps, chest pain etc always brought it back with doctor visits etc. Now 2 years on and my anxiety is as strong as ever, but i'm adamant i don't want to go on medicine, i want to do it myself but at the minute it's got me by the scruff of the neck. I've only just come back from Las Vegas, so I think my anxietys worse at the minute coming back from such a holiday to reality of work every day and days just passing by.
When i first got diagnosed with anxiety i told my girlfriend, but it was hard on her with me ringing her up with a different self diagnosis every week. So I just stopped speaking to her about it, as far as shes concerned it doesn't affect me day to day but it does, a lot. If i ever get bad anxiety I go to hers and it helps a lot, i don't speak to her about it but just been in her company eases the anxiety. Last night I was up till 3:30am having stupid thoughts about how we're all going to die one day, how fast life passes by so fast, how one day we're going to close our eyes and its just going to be black for ever. I was so close to waking her up and telling her I still struggle with anxiety but i didn't, i've woke up this morning feeling a bit better, nights are always worse.
I'm just wondering how long it is before I go to the doctors and say 'I need help with my anxiety'
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