How the Hell is it SO hard to feel normal?

I literally cant wait until the 20th when I have my first ever doctorate appointment and he hooks me on some meds. I've given in to it and would rather feel numb than this. I've had it with this constant fear of my own body. IM DONE.

i was like that last night i want feel normal but haven't felt normal for a long time its not nice iv been hospital several times ecgs blood tests chest xray all fine its all in our heads we think the worst i even Google lot symptoms but its worse iv doed like 500 times lol hope you get better soon im waiting for counselling to help me as i dont know how control it all time

I freaking hate anxiety and depression it is the worst thing I ever have to deal with on a daily basis

your not alone im right there with you, mornings is so bad for me deal with everything you said and more, never goes away just eases up throughout the day. like you im tired i cry and cry which im sure makes it all worse ive been wanting to run to ER alot lately went end of September they hook you up to a heart monitor give you a antihistamine and send ya home well in my case thats what they do. i never imagined anxiety would change and effect me so differently then ive ever dealt with i think that's what scares me the most how it changes makes one think they gonna die. hope you feel better im dealing with the crap as i respond to your post

Howie its understandable why youre so frustrated , but it dont help you , resenting your family for feeling normal doesnt help either. .. The main reason for anxiety / depression s due to imbalance of a body chemical . When anxiety comes on your body reacts in fear making the cause worse . The symptoms you just described are all listed with a vitamin D deficiency . Do you get plenty of sunshine howie ? Do you take supplements ? If not chances are you are deficient because you cant get vitamin D your body needs to function properly in foods . D is not only a vitamin its a pro hormone that helps your whole body regulate , including the brain functions ! Your upcoming doctor appointment on the 20th request a full blown panel of blood testing with all vitamin and electrolytes checked .

anxiety does not just happen , there is a reason ,. Studies have proven those that suffer anxiety , depression , palpitations , stomach issues IBS , gastritis , nervous stomach , shortness of breath , numbness , shaking , tingling , dizziness ,etc have a low vitamin D pro hormone .. With me i had those same symptoms ,a couple of nights the shaking woke me up . I had ,had blood work done prior but the vitamin D isnt protocol so it wasnt tested , i told my doctor i wanted a full blown scale ,thats when my deficiency was found .my levels were 19 , when levels are supposed to be anywhere from 40 to 80 . I have been on 10,000 ius almost 5 months , which i can feel a big difference . It takes a long time to replenish this pro hormone though yet still a road to recovery .. A person can have a deficiency a long time and not have symptoms then bam it hits ,as your body cant take it any longer .. So please dont give up , have your levels checked , for many that suffer have recovered , there is a light at the end of the tunnel .. Im praying for you howie and all of the folks on here as i KNOW there is also power in prayer !

Howie read these , it may help you

https://patient.info/forums/discuss/vitamin-d-deficiency-success-stories-585482?page=14#3609856

i suffer from this. ask myself how everyone looks so happy and i feel like im about to fall off the cliff. i get the cold sweats and shakes and all else. i take small dosage of tranquilizers and starting to get off the little i take. when you actually wrap your mind around the fact that you are healthy your anxiety will calm down. i have had this 22 years. back then they just medicated you. find a good therapist who specializes in anxiety disorder. keep your mind on happy things. retrain your mind. i know how hard this is because i have lived it. fight to live i also have alot of faith. the best on your journey to stepping on anxiety.

I'm right there with you! I felt totally fine a few months ago, now I can't even have dinner with friends and live a normal life bc of this anxiety. Some days are ok but others are torture. I don't get the heart palpatations much, mine is more head preasure, dizziness, brain fog, head not feeling right. All tests have come back normal. It's crazy and scary what anxiety can do to your body. But just know you're not alone in this and those feelings can't hurt you as uncomfortable as they are. I would look into guided meditation videos to listen to before bed, practice breathing techniques to slow your heart rate down and look into other all natural supplements. I'd list some but seems like every time I do my post gets flagged and moderated. Best of luck and feel better soon!