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Hi, some of you may recognize my earlier posts as ive used this forum to get by during an incredibly difficult time. So i went into crisis over some major stressors happening in my life.
I have managed to resolve some things that initially started this, but some things remain. There has been a major shift in what my anxiety revolves around, and now its my sleep. Normally sleep fine, but when anxious i awake early in the morning and cant get 8hrs of sleep. I went to the doctor who gave me a prescription for zolpidem (ambien?). I took those a few nights, but it worries me a lot to be on something addictive and i know its only for shortterm use. It gets me to sleep, just turns everything off, theres no natural sleepiness no nothing. It feels scary.
I tried to go a night without (ive only taken the pills about 6 times and not every night..) and i just dont get sleepy like i used to. I try to read, distract myself (im normally not anxious at night that much) but i am so SCARED to go to sleep. Ive started to associate my bed with terror and i remember the sleepless nights when i despite being exhausted and working all day just couldnt get to sleep. Its like my body has stopped its normal functioning regarding sleep. It wears on me. Im not as anxious in the daytime about the things that started all of this, instead im anxious about not being able to sleep! I know this is a vicious cycle i just want it to stop..Im going to go back to the doctor and try to ask for something that isnt addictive like zolpidem, cause it just adds to the stress thinking about that. Other times with temporary insomnia i have used Benadryl purchased over the counter in the US, this has been really effective for me. Does anybody have any experience with antihistamines? Or any tips how to manage this? I would just like som reassurance..Im scared i will never work normally again- thats my worst fear. I also simply will not risk an addiction to sleepingpills.
Please just any kind words would make such a difference. This is gruelling and i would appreciate anything.
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