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How To Tell someone just how suicidal i really am?

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rachh
rachh

has anyone ever asked for help with suicidal feelings?

ive always had them for over 15 years now but its so strong.. i think im so close to doing it and i really hope i do!! but im just so alone and sometimes i just wish i could talk to someone.. but i have no one to talk to, cant talk to family and i have no friends..

i am seeing an occupational therapist at the moment but im not good at talking about how i really feel.. plus i get scared about the whole suicide topic as im not sure what they would do .. ?

anyone have any experiences with talking about it ?

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  • patient_mod2
    patient_mod2 rachh

    Posted

    Hi rachh

    We note from a recent post which you have made to our forum that you may be experiencing thoughts around self-harm. If we have misinterpreted your comments then we apologies for contacting you directly. But if you are having such thoughts then please note that you are not alone in this, and there are people out there that can help.

    If you are having these suicidal thoughts then we strongly recommend you speak to someone who may be able to help. The Samaritans offer a safe space where you can talk openly about what you are going through. They can help you explore your options, understand your problems better, or just be there to listen.

    Their contact details are on our patient information leaflet here: https://patient.info/health/dealing-with-suicidal-thoughts, which also offers lots of other advice on how you can access the help you may need.

    If you are having such thoughts then please do reach out to the team at the Samaritans (or the other people detailed in our leaflet) who will understand what you're going through and will be able to help.

    Kindest regards

    Patient

  • sam18386
    sam18386 rachh

    Posted

    Write it down. It's then not in your head and then take that to your cbt counsellor. Someone needs to help you, you can't carry this burden yourself.

  • hypercat
    hypercat rachh

    Posted

    HI not sure what you mean about what they would do? Unless you have a firm plan and the means to do it probably nothing except talk. You need to be open with a counsellor otherwise there is no point in going to one. x

  • rachh
    rachh

    Posted

    thanks for replies guys

    so I mean if I actually do talk about it with my lady I see if I actually say I'm really suicidal like I've never been this bad before it's all I think about atm, i keep trying to plan how I'm gonna do it and where, but then I think I cant .. mainly because I just feel bad about what its gonna do to the ones I leave not that there are many.. but I have had a third cousin commit suicide so have seen how it impacts the family.. and I dont go out by myself so I wouldn't wanna do it at home how do i go out by myself to do it..

    anyway .. i feel like i could be close .. but if i said all this to a doctor are they just gonna talk to me.. they wouldn't lock me in a hospital or something cos I couldn't cope or do that .. I'd rather keep it to myself .. maybe I should anyway .. what can anyone say ...

    I think I'm just scared of what I see on TV etc.. they make u go.to hospital.. only the hospitals aren't like on TV and some are awful places .. so 8f theres a chance that could happen I'm not going to tell anyone..

    • PatientMod-B
      PatientMod-B rachh

      Posted

      Hi rachh

      We wrote to you following your recent post in which it appears that you are experiencing thoughts around self-harm.

      I am very sorry to see that it appears you are still going through a difficult time.

      We would urge you to remember that you are not alone in this, and there are people out there that can help.

      Please do access the help we outlined in our previous message. Services such as the Samaritans have helped many thousands of patients, offering a safe space to talk openly about what you are going through. They can help you explore your options, understand your problems better, or just be there to listen. You can find their details, and other advice, onour patient information leaflet here: https://patient.info/health/dealing-with-suicidal-thoughts.

      If you are having such thoughts then please do reach out to the team at the Samaritans (or the other people detailed in our leaflet) who will understand what you're going through and will be able to help.

      Kindest regards

      Patient

    • january21
      january21

      Posted

      thank you rachh for ur kind words i tried to message u back but it wouldnt send so i wrote it here x

  • leela23707
    leela23707 rachh

    Posted

    Hello my names Leela. I've felt exactly the same you do feel right now. Luckily i called emergency services and told them i was thinking about suicide. They gave me so much love, attention, help and diagnosed me with depression. Now i'm 50 years old and happily on anti-depressants (happy pills) because i didnt have enough happy cells in my brain so i had to top them up. I feel much better now. Also they let me try out all different kinds of therapy to help me feel better and learn to love myself and forgive myself for all the mistakes i'd made in my life.

    Many many people would be heartbroken if you took your life, including me ! And i dont even know you personally but so many of us feel or felt that same way you do now. So we are all in it together. You are not alone. Just ask for help. Call the emergency services and you will realise just how loved you really are...to people who dont even know you personally !

    Lots and lots of sympathetic hugs from your new friend Leela Davis xxx

  • leela23707
    leela23707 rachh

    Posted

    Hello my names Leela.

    Call your emergency services for a chat and some advice. Whenever i felt suicidal i called the emergency services. They always gave me so much love, attention, help and diagnosed me with depression. Call the emergency services and you will realise just how loved you really are...to people who dont even know you personally !

    Many many people would be heartbroken if they knew how you're suffering, including me ! And i dont even know you personally but so many of us feel or felt that same way you do now. So we are all in it together. You are not alone. Just ask for help. I feel much better now. I just wish Id asked for help sooner.

    But however if you're not feeling suicidal then call someone to talk to however hard it is you need to force yourself to get help. Go chat to your doctor. If you dont have a good one then find yourself a big doctors surgery with lots to choose from. That's what i did.

    Now i'm happily on anti-depressants (happy pills) because i didnt have enough happy cells in my brain so i had to top them up. I had panic attacks and they cured them. I had insomnia and they cured that. I had to try out various medicine combos till i found the right one for me but I feel much better now. I just wish Id asked for help sooner. You may need to see your doctor again to increase your medicine or try a new or extra medicine.

    Also they let me try out all different kinds of therapy (one to one or group therapy) to help me feel better and learn to love myself and forgive myself for all the mistakes i'd made in my life.

    Lots and lots of sympathetic hugs from your new friend Leela Davis xxx

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