Hyperawareness ocd
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for the past month and a half ive been caught in a never ending cycle of hyperawarness. Every thought i have that isnt related is immidiatly interrupted by the ackowledgment that I'm out of the cycle and thus am back in it. It prevents me from focusing on anything as my focus is automatically drawn inwards ever few seconds. I just dont know what to do anymore. I had this before on the 30th of April but that only lasted for 4 days. and then i was fine for 2 weeks. Now ive been in this for so long that i cant even remember what it was like to think normally and so i fear im stuck like this forvever. I'm just constantly thinking about the fact that im thinking and it is debilitating. I just dont see a way out of this. IM really just looking for reassurance from people whom can relate that it is not permant.
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Grounded oisin66821
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I could not have written this better myself. I know 100% exactly how you feel so you are not alone in this. This is the first time I've really seen anyone post exactly how I've felt, I knew myself but could not begin to put it into words. I've had it off and on for years but last fall it seemed to get more often then leading to being an everyday thing. Are you taking any type of medication? Have you been to a doctor for anxiety? From my own personal experience, it seems that it gets worse when anxiety is high, but then again even if you aren't anxious and think about that it makes you anxious, its like a vicious cycle for sure!
I went to see a psychiatrist finally last fall and have been taking antidepressants for about 8 months now and it is a lot better, still comes on once in awhile but much better then the every day thing I was feeling for sure. I think once we get our anxiety leveled off decently this does get better.
If you need to talk about it feel free to message me, I do know how awful this can be.
oisin66821 Grounded
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when did you notice that it was better. Did you just one day relaize that you had had a thought not related to your own hyperawareness and not interrupted by it? Becasue i want to be clear here it is quite literally there all the time. When im watching tv my head is just racing with a cycle of seconfs of distraction immediatly followed by being pulled back into my mind. Even as i write this im being pulled back in after every word. Whats the longest that it was an everyday thing for you? My current state has lasted for over a month and a half and now i cant even rembrmber what its like yo not have this 24/7 fixation. What medication where you on and how long for? Are you currently in this thought cycle?
oisin66821
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this isnt just an everyday thing it is an every second of everday thing. Was it simular for you?
oisin66821
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the way that it works for me is like ill automatically go your not going to be able to escape from this and so everything i do all day is operating under that caveat and surly enough i never do