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hypochondria leukemia. desperate need of help :(

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ana.hitaa
ana.hitaa

ive made like 10 posts on this website looking for reassurance about leukemia. i know to an outsider my posts may be silly and childish. sometimes even when i look back, i think it’s ridiculous but i cant help it. im so scared i have leukemia.  the only symptom i have right now are petechiae. i have a lot of them. and everyday theyre increasing. i told my mom and my mom has some too. its like 5 am rn and i shined a flashlight on my forearm and i saw like 10 really really really tiny petechiae and im freaking out. you cant really see them without a flashlight but im still scared.

i took a bloodtest 8 months ago and everything was okay but im scared. i keep saying its just hypochondria but what if its not? i am so unhappy and so on edge. im so scared of my skin to the point where i cannot wear short sleeves anymore. im in desperate need of reassurance but i know no ammount of reassurance will ever calm me down. i try talking to my mom but she just yells and tells me shes taken me to doctors before. im 15. i know this may seem childish to you but im in the constant state of panic. i cannot go to sleep tonight bc im scared theres gonna be a petechiae rash on my skin when i wake up. i have no one to talk to and im just so hopeless.

i see no future for myself. i really dont want to die.

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  • AlexandriaGizmo
    AlexandriaGizmo ana.hitaa

    Posted

    Hi Anna I answered you before but because I tell you the truth you ignored me, you do not have leukemia, I can actually tell you this without fear of being proved wrong, you don't even have hypochondria, you have health anxiety which at 15 is quite common and with treatment very and a positive mindset you can be cured.

    So to look at it another way, if you have leukemia then this would not be your only symptoms, can you send a picture, tell me what weight you are and why you don't believe the one test for leukemia that will tell them straight away to do more Tests.

    • ana.hitaa
      ana.hitaa AlexandriaGizmo

      Posted

      hi. thank you so much for replying. its means a lot. i know its stupid but the reassurance helps a little. i think i calmed down a bit since yesterday. thank you again!
    • AlexandriaGizmo
      AlexandriaGizmo ana.hitaa

      Posted

      It's far from being stupid it's actually really common, lots of us go through it in our teens and some of us sadly never get completely over it and spend many years never being able to ever get past it, as we get older we get a bit better but when I was young their was no where to turn to, no one to ask the questions either.

      Their was just your head telling you lies

      Please talk to your mum so that you can get help now while you are young enough to get your life back on track.

      Get her to make you an appointment with your doctor so you can tell them how you are feeling, not to ask questions about leukemia but to get your health anxiety treated before it becomes chronic.

      I have known people with leukemia and I know you haven't got it, take care and talking really does help

  • lisa95164
    lisa95164 ana.hitaa

    Posted

    Hi Ana

    I understand what you are going through... I was the same at 15... I had a lump that I worried constantly about so much that I was scared to go to sleep in case I did not wake up. It eventually disappeared after a few days but I remember feeling terrified.

    As for leukaemia.. It does have many many more symptoms so you would know by now, you would be very Ill

    As your recent bloods came back ok I'm certain you don't have anything to worry about.

    Some people are more prone to petichae just like some people have freckles or spots. I have many petichae.. have had them as longs i can rember and I'm 35 and still going strong.

    I know it's easy said but try not to worry. If you really cannot stop worrying, try to talk to your mum. I am a mum to a daughter and if my girl was worrying like you are I would want to help reassure her. If you cannot talk to her ask her to take you to drs and tell him you are really anxious about this..

    Please dont worry.. worrying itself can make you feel ill..

    Take care hun..

    Lisa

    • ana.hitaa
      ana.hitaa lisa95164

      Posted

      hii. thank you so much for replying. it means a lot knowing that im not the only one in the world with the spots. i will try to talk to my mom. btw you sound like a great mom. thanks for replying again smile
    • lisa95164
      lisa95164 ana.hitaa

      Posted

      Thanks hun.. We mum's aren't perfect..We don't always get it right. I'm sure your mum cares about you none the less. Good luck hun x

  • karogers
    karogers ana.hitaa

    Posted

    HI

    Happy to reply to your post and kindly suggest that you seek support/help

    If u r at school there will b a counsellor to talk to or your GP or there are other Helplines you could call

    Talking to the right people really helps! :-)

  • si6996
    si6996 ana.hitaa

    Posted

    First thing. CALM DOWN! Many people have had more symptoms of this than some shiny spots on their arm. You may not even have them. What you could be seeing is your own skin flaking (which is normal) & the light of the flash light is just hitting it just right to reflect the light & look shiny. If your the type of person who keeps your skin very clean the shiny spots will increase as your skin exfoliates it's self. If you have been tested & come back clear the don't worry. Your clear. Doctors go to school for many years to know what they are doing so trust in your doctor.

  • Guest
    Guest ana.hitaa

    Posted

    well I had leukemia and didnt have petechia. and also...I didnt die.

    so..calm down. dont waste your precious time and life worrying.

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