Hysterical once you've hit the wall?

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Does anyone else reach a point where they're hysterical due to the exhaustion? The past couple of months, anytime when i get really run down my emotions become somewhat uncontrollable. I end up crying and laughing (not sure which one) because of the way I'm feeling... Crying because I hurt all over and so exhausted I feel dead inside, and laughing because for some odd reason I find my whole situation funny as there is little I can do about it at that time.

I try very hard to keep these emotions at bay as I know that it only makes me feel worse than I already am. But I just can't seem to sometimes. When I hit the wall, I'm completly gone... I eventually reach a point where I have no more energy to feel anything.

Does anyone else experience this?

 

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  • Posted

    You betcha! At. Thanksgiving, with son's girlfriend's family, son arranged for me to have a guest room to rest in, when everything was too much. Boy! Did I need a break. I thought I'd collapse right at the table.I try never to get too hungry, or tired. Have to monster myself all day long. And when I need my bed, my meds, tea, something to eat, I mean, I really need it.

    Sorry that you don't have good pain relief. Shame on your Drs. Tell them just how badly you do feel. I get oxycodone and norco, thank G-d. Couldn't sleep without my Xyrem, (sodium oxybate) either. We are invalids and must carve out our lives to protect our selves. It's never easy. You're not alone. Love, abby

    • Posted

      Absolutly, it is far from easy! 

      Same here, if I need something, I need it right then and now! 

      I am looking into other meds/alternatives for pain and sleep.

      It is great to know that I'm not the only one. 

  • Posted

    Hello !  God , do I feel like that sometimes. If I push myself, as you say, like hitting a wall often collapse and my wife has to help me to bed via our stairlift. Recently I had a bout of Noravirus and then the pain was totally unbelievable. I tried to take my morphine and codeine  but it made me vomit so for about 12 hours crippling pain all over.  I should have called an ambulance looking back. The only thing I could do was shout out loud, for some reason that helped a bit. I think that it must be against the oath doctors take to allow a human being to suffer like this. I have telephoned for help. but GPs dont seem to care.I was rolled up into a ball all the time and could not move , my wife rang, but unless I could make it to the surgery I would get nothing. I thought doctors had to come out if you are so ill you cant move. I feel all doctors should be put through the same pain as ME sufferers get.

    They might just realise it is not a joke or all in the mind as it has been proven to be countless times.Where the hell is compassion with ME. If you say I have MS

    then they come running. ME has been shown to be worse than MS and recent surveys by charities put ME along side renal failure and even cancer pain.

    And yet we are left sucking our thumbs and screaming inside with vitually no help.

    I am sorry for you makeely98825 , but you are not alone. Keep up the fight.

    • Posted

      I read somewhere that the fatigue of ME is worse than for those patients dying in the end stages of AIDS!
    • Posted

      Hello !!! Thanks for the reply.

      It's so hard to know what to do when you're stuck so far down and know that nothing can help! What can you do apart from riding it out, and hoping that you will have some sort of relief shortly.

      That is such a shame that you had to get to the surgery in order to get help! That is infuriating!!! What is the point in having GP's when they're not there when you need them the most. I'm sorry that that is what you had to put up with.

      Yes, screaming inside is what we are left to do, which is dissapointing ...

      Thank you for your words!

  • Posted

    I use herbs to control my moods and they work extremely well!

    And recently I've started taking a very low dose of Propranalol, a Beta blocker, on prescription because I've been diagnosed with PTSD. There was research done that found that Propranalol at a low dose helps with ME, although it's not good at a higher dose. I feel so much calmer and with the herbs and the med I'm more stable as it eases the fight or flight response, or helps the parasymathetic nervous system responsible for rest and digest, It calms the heart and I can feel the difference in my heart beat. I used to get palpitations but I haven't had any recently and my heart beat feels more regular.

    When we're in that frightful mood swing anxiety type state the sympathetic nervous system is more in control.

    The herbs I use for my moods (which used to be extremely unbalanced) are St John's Wort (antidepressant); Damiana (antidepressant and energiser), Vervain (adaptogen or harmoniser for balance) and Kelp is very useful for the thyroid gland. I take Valerian (mild sedative) at night to help me get a good night's sleep.

    Of course the herbs all contain other good properties and I'm physically somewhat better than I was and more able to cope all round. I'm nowhere well yet though but with the above help I'm more able to deal with the mental pressures of this illness and wondering if we'll ever get better.

    It would be worth while for you to take a close look at your diet because something in it might be causing your wild moods?

    • Posted

      I mean exasperating your wild moods; I know ME causes them but the foods we eat make a huge difference I've found!
    • Posted

      Thanks for your advice! 

      I am currently on summer holidays, so what I am eating is probably far from ideal! But in the next week I will be looking at my diet very closely... I am hoping that I can sort something out from that aspect before I go back to school... which, in a way I am scared to go back (but that is another very very very long story!!)

      I will most defiently look into what you have mentioned!

      Thanks again!!

  • Posted

    The worst "hysteria" I had was one time when I was really exhausted and couldn't find my glasses. I looked everywhere and then my partner picked up my bag the wrong way up and they fell out of one of the pockets that I thought I'd checked. I just cried for a solid 15 minutes after that and spent the rest of the day in bed. I had to call in sick to work as well because I'd hit that wall of utter exhaustion. I've had a couple of equally bad days since but that was the first time I ever had to call in sick due to cfs. Sadly, not the last.
    • Posted

      Before I started using herbs for my moods I lost my pen top and flew into a rage! eek I realised the absurdity and started laughing at myself.
  • Posted

    Yes! I believe loosing it due to fatigue is universal, but because we run into it often and seriously we may experience it more often. In my case it shows as anger, unfortunately for my surroundings. I cannot control it, only take myself away, into another room or out.

    Keeping emotions at bay cost more energy. It might be an idea to find ways to 1) release them in a safe way. 2) try to pace so you do not find yourself in this situation in the first place.

    1) My ways: when can: Scream! Walk. Exercise, on whatever level. sing. Sigh, deeply. Dream. Meditate.

    Other suggestions would be welcome also to me.

    2) Getting to that point is in my experience for two reasons: one is you just Do now and then, when it is all too much and you just want to be normal again. It passes. Secondly, when not pacing well enough. With good pacing the most severe exhaustion is avoided, and sometimes much more than that.

     

    • Posted

      hello there.I agree with pacing and everyone has to work it out for themselves. Only trouble is, if your ME is severe. Mine is at present, hope is in remission. I spend 23 hours in bed and try to get up for a sit in the sofa downstairs for an hour or so. I still havent reached any plateau I can rely on. My family relies on me to organise various things so I do everything important on the computer. I still get very bad exhaustion and bad breathlessness, morphine helps with this.

      How can I avoid the  exhaustion and try to carry on , many days I am even unable to talk to my wife. It can be difficutl to work out how slow do I go.

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