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I always feel like i’m going to die and i can’t leave my house

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haley19807
haley19807

Hi, I’m Haley. I just turned 21 years old. I have been diagnosed with anxiety and depression since i was 17. It has only really gotten bad the last two years. I have severe panic attacks almost everyday. It has caused me to stop working and pretty much bedridden myself for the past 3 months. I am afraid of dying. My first anxiety attack I thought i was dying and went to the hospital to find out it was all in my head. Since then I get panicked leaving my house because i’m afraid i’m just going to drop dead somewhere and to me the safest place to where i could get help is my house. It has caused me to lose my job, friends, family, and opportunities. it has taken over my life. i try to make doctors appointments and i can’t even get up to go to them. i’m always afraid they are going to tell me something is wrong with me. it’s like i step out of my house and i’m dizzy and sweaty and my heart is pounding but i get back in my house and in to my room and i’m calm except for the fact that i’m crying for failure. i don’t know what to do anymore and i need help fast. please 

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  • gary66870
    gary66870 haley19807

    Posted

    Need to try and really see a doctor or get a home visit. Sounds like you defo have agoraphobia you just basically described me for the last 10 years took a panic attack when I was 18 went to hospital got checked over and told it was a panic attack which then developed into generalized anxiety / health anxiety /panic attacks and depression at my worst I was taking 10 plus panic attacks a day in my house I never set foot out my house for over 3 years I have been to the hospital loads of times at my own doctors thousands of times been on multiple medications seen multiple psychiatrists therapy etc and I still am really really bad but you should defo try and get a home visit from doctor and explain your situation and try and get therapy medication etc I'm from Scotland and my recent bout of therapy was home visits and then near the end of it I was going out to them hopefully you can get the help and get feeling a bit better

    • haley19807
      haley19807 gary66870

      Posted

      thank you so much for replying. and i’m not 100% sure if the US does at home doctors visits but i’ll definitely check in to that. it’s just so draining having to explain to people why you didn’t make it to your doctors appointment today and seeing the disappointment on their faces just makes me feel even worse than i already do. thanks for your advice. makes me feel better that i’m not alone in this 
    • gary66870
      gary66870 haley19807

      Posted

      Yeah it is tough trying to explain your situation to people who have not experienced a panic attack or severe anxiety most people seem to think it's not that big of a deal it's just because they don't know much about mental illnesses and how it actually affects a person and how much it can impact their life but good doctors therapist etc do you should be made to feel even worse by people for not making an appointment they are the kind of people you really don't won't in your life if they can't grasp how tough it is for you if it's someone who cares about you I would hope they would try and educate themselves a bit more on what's actually affecting you and try and support you thanks take care

    • Samchav
      Samchav gary66870

      Posted

      Yeah:// It feels like when I talk to people about this who don’t have anxiety they are more insensitive to it, but with those who’ve had panic attacks they are definitely more sensitive and understand it. 
  • edwina97301
    edwina97301 haley19807

    Posted

    Hi Hayley, you're definitely not alone, my anxiety is very similar to Gary's reply , I can relate to both of you , never thought anxiety would leave me a shaking , sweating mess that couldn't leave the house , couldn't stand going out invade I bumped into anyone and just constantly had negative thoughts that drove me mad. This all came to a head , eventually my mum dragged me to doctors and I broke down . Eventually after I was reasured this was more common than I thought and I wasn't mad I got counselling and also meds to calm me enough to do small things ( always with mum at first) but gradually very slowly my mood started to lift, I was thinking more positive, and reaching small goals . Nowadays I can live a relatively good life. Anxiety is always there and I can have bad patches but nothing like being trapped in my own head at home. Please see a gp and explain as you did above, they will get you on the right track, it seems impossible at the moment ( I know, believe me) but you can get better. I thought family, and doctors would say I just needed to pull myself together so I never told anyone , please don't waste any more of your life . Glad you posted here as you will see many others understand exactly how you feel and you can read some success stories for reassurance. I also live in Scotland so don't know if you could get a telephone consultation or home visit where you are, but please try and get some family support and make that fist step😊??

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