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I few years back I was manic/depressive. Cycling and not taking meds. I had been in denial, lying, and very ill mentally. I was suicidal and ended up in the hospital. I lost people I love. Some by choice and others who had had enough. A few years later I am well. Take my meds, go to group therapy as much as possible and have one on one counseling every three weeks. I have almost forgiven myself. I'm just not sure if my decision to stay away from loved ones is the right thing. There is drama and a lot of things that trigger me. I also realize who I am and what I want and I know I would not be entirely happy with having to deal with others issues and drama. As for the people Iblost, I am finally letting go and realizing that I can't force anyone to love me and that I'm done crying and praying for forgiveness and to be taken back. I've becoming selfish and finally taking care of me. Praying I making the right decisions and keeping it moving. Has anyone experienced this? How were you able to completely let go? I think I'll get there because I've come a long way but I still have moments of sadness.
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