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please excuse any gramatical mistakes..english is my second language
I promised I would come back to encourage people when I get better. Here we are after a horrible year 2015. If somebody told me I would feel so amazing a year ago I would not believe it, I didnt wanna live, I thought I had a cancer or some horrible disease..I spent a month in a mental hospital, doctors presribed me all sort of medication, which reallly helped in the worst time of me life...but never felt same as before my anxeity started. I was skinny... scared, I spent hours and hours looking for anwsers on the internet...I took on running and it helped me so much, burnt the horrible cortisol in my blood, the nasty butterflies in my belly...but when I finished running ..it all started again, meditation caused more anxeity ect. Then I just gave up fighting it, I had two options: accept that I will be like this forever or end it. I do love myself haha so I went for the first option...and my anxeity become weaker and weaker, I carried on running and I decided to stop all medication just after Christams this year, I didnt feel much differnce with or without accept bad sleeping - i have been taking melatonin, which is the natural sleeping hormone and serves better then sleeping pills. But i must admit I do have occasionally nightmares and vivid dreams.I know my anxeity can return any time but so what? I will get over it again and might drop some pounds haha ( I have been getting curvy because I feel so happy ) I got a job in advertising agency, I photograph weddings, do sports, drink little bit with friends and become a vegan 2 months ago. Life is good. Please stay positive and share your story when you get better, its so important to give hope to everyone who is not feeling well right now, sending you love Kat xxx
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