I am so angry that suicide is not an option for me.
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I am so depressed. I want to check out but I can't. I have my family that needs me. I just want the pain and fear to stop. I feel as if I am a prisoner inside my own body. I have never felt this much sadness and pain ever. I am at my breaking point. I don't sleep because the anxiety attacks scare. I wake up when I do sleep drained from fear, my heart goes a mile a minute and I sweat. My thoughts race, my body hurts. I hide this from my kids they need me to be strong for them. I am so afraid of myself. I want to stop the hurt but I can't. I envy the people who have suicide as an option. Their pain has stopped I have to live on. I am seeing a therapist. She says it's along road but it will get better. I don't see it. I am in a very dark place. It's like being in a dark cave with no flash light.
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lit53944 Hes1980
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I also cannot really see anything in the future that I should live for besides my Mom who is severely sick (and my Grandparents who aren't top notch healthy either).
I can't really say anything to try and change your outlook because mine is the same, but like I said being a good person (as you are) it really does mean you have value. That's how I see it.
The only times I've managed to drag myself out of deep and nasty pit of misery is if I isolate myself for a period of time and do nothing but relax and think about myself and who I am. As you have family it wouldn't be as simple as how I can do that but it's the only thing I've found to help at all. I've had therapists and medication and breif isolation is the only thing that has a positive outcome for me, mental health wise.
I hope everything works out, I really do.
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