I am tired of bipolar depression that is severe.

Why do you believe you are a sinner?

It's just a strange comment to make!

You can't help being bipolar its a condition.

And please don't even contemplate what you are thinking, your life could change and go in another direction where your bipolar is just a memory, life is for living, you are loved by the people around you and you need some help to see beyond where you are now.

Don't ever give up. X

Bless you heather

firstly because your having these thoughts doesn't mean your a sinner . It means you are very unwell and cannot think clearly or see a light at the end of the tunnel. It would seem your medication isn't helping you much. Please get an urgent appointment with your GP or if you start feeling worse ring your local crisis line.

The pain and distress you are experiencing won't last, you will start feeling better, but tap into all resources available to you today ♥♥♥

Wishing you better, god bless x

I agree, life isn't easy. but trust me on this. What you want isn't suicide, what you want is and end to your suffering. I believe that God created all humans to face life and part of facing life is suffering. God chose people like you to set an example and to show what real suffering is like. Part of life is facing suffering and I strongly urge you to life for the sake of facing life and setting an example. Remember what you want isn't death, you just want an end to your pain.

Hi Heather,

Did you ever play that game connect the dots?  Where you draw lines between  corresponding letters or numbers and in the end it creates a picture?  There are no dots to connect a correlation between disease and sinning.  Yet I understand that the bipolar brain grabs thoughts and keeps on thinking about those thoughts.  It is called kindling.  Like starting a fire beginning with embers until it grows and grows and becomes full flames.

Your disease causes you to obsess over thoughts and it is difficult to let go of a thought.  I am so sorry that you suffer with this.  My daughter has this same condition and I studied it deeply.  The best and only thing you can do is to take your medications on a regular basis and attend therapy sessions with a trusted professional who can help you extinguish your burning thoughts and research to learn about your disease.  Knowledge is power, even in the diseased brain. 

You are like a soldier in battle and you will become weary, but you never give up.  Having a depression disorder mysel, I have contemplated suicide too many times and it seems to me that I do not know if suicide is even worth it, because those who have commited it cannot tell me anything about it.  So since I do not have this crucial information, then it stands to reason that anything I conjour up to  say about it in my mind, is a lie.  

I hope something I have said helps you even in the tiniest way.

Warm hugs

Dawn, USA   

You are a wonderful and unique person who has a disorder. Sin has nothing to do with it! Think of all the medical conditions/disorders people have! Diabetes, heart disease, thyroid disorders, endocrine disfiunction...and on and on and on. The latter are medical disorders and are not brought on my sin! Bipolar disorder is also medical disorder - your brain isn't being bathed with the chemicals it needs, This has nothing to do with sin it has to do with your disorder! Your brain will tell you things, because of the disorder, that aren't true and this is an example. Please know that with time, medication and good counseling you can live a wonderful, productive and happy life. If you are feeling like your life doesn't matter or you are contemplating hurting yourself please know that there are other answers, Call or write a help line.   information in following link : https://www.samaritans.org/

You may be destined for a very special role in life, perhaps to help others on their journey with bipolar. You are ill not a sinner. Take your meds, talk with a counselor, get well - time is pretty amazing - it will help you heal. 

I feel better with my meds changed quite a bit.