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First i will start telling something about myself, i am a young adult just graduated from uni one year ago (no job yet but i am not worried), i have a happy and health childhood with loving family and very much satisfy with my life. i have no previous problem regarding my psychical or mental health
Basically what happen is around one month and two ago i decided to take a nap but it was very hot and humid so i woke up aware of my breathing, then i have a massive panic/anxiety attack that go like "what if i keep remember this for the rest of my life”, “my life is ruined" etc. thoughts like that. And then the next 2 week is like the most hellish, torturous and depressing time i have ever experienced. I lost interest in everything from watching TV, reading books, and playing games and no appetite. Wake up early like 6am, every minute is like an hours being bored out of mind and became fearful of how to pass the day. So I became really frustrated because all this can be solve if I can just simply wipe my memory of this happening. And basically consume with suicidal thoughts and Afraid of being alone.
Then I basically come to term being aware of breathing, although I am still very much constantly aware of breathing and waking up with the thought of breathing, I slowly regain interest in other activity although it is still uncomfortable I find it to be tolerable.
Fast forward to last Thursday, I became aware of swallowing(the sensation of spit in your month) and yeah as you can guess my situation worsen and revert back to start(but not as bad) and now I have random adrenaline rush (hard to stay still, pacing forward and backward) I am guessing this is minor panic attack.
Summary- had a sudden and random panic/anxiety attack about being aware of breathing and can’t stop think about breathing and becoming depressed and anxious. And basically anxious for being anxious and so trap in a cycle.
I had this for about 1 and a half month now, Should I wait or go to see a GP ask for medication for anxiety? Or tell her to refer me to a psychiatrist? Will it help me to forget about breathing?
Funny thing is I had become aware of breathing before and I was able to forget about it in a day or two but because of me becoming anxious about it, it became impossible to forget about it
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