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I just can't! Mood swings are on daily bases... Few days ago I was about to commit suicide and today I'm the happiest and careless person in the world...
WHY CAN'T I GO TO BLOODY STORE AND GET PSILOCYN MUSHROOMS. WHEN I DO SHROOMS ONCE A MONTH I'M NORMAL:I SLEEP, I EAT, I DON'T DRINK ALCOHOL, I DON'T DO DRUGS.
These days I drink at night so can fall asleep, cause I need to work early in the morning.
F*** all of this bipolar f****** crap, I'm screaming right now, I can't take this sh*t no more!
I workout regulary, I'm in good shape... it's not helping, I'm destroying my life, I do stupid things, I can't control this... I'm a nice guy, never doing harm to anybody and still all are turning back on me...And these racing thoughts... will You f****** stop... I want my head to be empty... I laugh when I see ppl on the street with headphones and mp3 players thinking: my "head mp3" is playing music (you name it) ONLY PROBLEM IS THAT IT'S PLAYLIST IS BLOODY RANDOM AND I CAN'T STOP IT.
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