I constantly feel like I’m dying. Please help me.

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Hi everyone. I’m a 19 year old college student, that suffers from anxiety disorder. Recently, I have spiraled out of control. I am lost, I feel so alone. Every day, I deal with a terrible weight on my chest and my shoulders. It feels like I’m carrying a thousand pounds on top of them. I have hertburn regularly. I can no longer sleep, as I’m terrified I’m going to die in my sleep. When I am able to sleep, I wake up panicked, like my body woke me up to keep me from dying. My muscles ache, I’m exhausted. I’m on Prozac, but it doesn’t seem to be helping anymore. I’ve had so many emergency room visits to check my heart, and every time, they’ve told me I’m fine. But part of me feels like they missed something, and that I’m going to die any day now. I am no longer enjoying my life. I’ve only been alive for 19 short years, I want to enjoy being in college, spending time with my friends, boyfriend, and family. But every day I become increasingly more afraid. I don’t know what to do. I’m coming to this community in hopes that someone who has experienced the same thing can be there for me, and give me advice on how to fight this. Thank you all, for any help. 

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    Hello Magoins,

    I completely understand how you feel. The feeling is terrible and frustrating. I know this may sound irrelevant but remember you are not alone.

    I am going through the same thing right now. Fluoxetine seams to help but I have a long way to go. We can stay strong and get through this. I wish you all the best!

    Joann

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      It is comforting knowing I’m not alone. I’m the only one in my family that suffers from this, so I am unable to talk to them, as they get frustrated with me and turn me away. I was on fluoxetine, but ended up being allergic. One step forward, two steps back, I suppose. Thank you for your kind words.
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    I feel your pain! I'm getting so many symptoms I feel like something is seriously wrong and it's driving me mad.

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      It’s terrible, my symptoms are overpowering my life. I suppose it’s just so difficult for me to understand that anxiety CAN and WILL cause physical symptoms that mimic illnesses. My doctors must be so tired of me at this point. It’s nice to know I’m not alone.
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    I the same everyday it's horrible I'm. Always checking my pulse

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      I am too. I ended up buying a watch that can track my heartbeat. Im constantly checking it. Keeping you in my thoughts, so that you can overcome this. 
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    Dear17magoins.  People with anxiety disorder are perfectionist, want to be in control all the time, do not do well with change, are sympathetic to a fault, tend to take on other peoples pain, hurts, etc.  That is good and also bad.  Because life is not perfect,  No one can control everything all the time.  Life is always changing.  We cannot always be our best all the time.  We cannot fix, help everyone. 

    You are not alone.  I am sure there are so many students in the same boat as you.  Starting college is exciting and terrifying.  First time you are away from your parents, guardians, whoever.  Having to share a room with a stranger.  You are responsible for yourself.  Of course you are stressed/  What have you done for your stress.  Have you taaken some time to taake care of yourself.  Just you-are you eating right.  Are just eating junk food or skipping meals.  Take care of your body by feeding it.  You will feel better.  Are you drinking a lot of caffeine? 

    Red bull?  Stop now.  Alcohol?  doesn't mix with meds.  Exercising, just ten minutes will make you endophines kick in-.  Take a yoga class.  Meditate.  If you focus on the bad, you will only see the bad,  That goes for everything.  People, mates, and even your body.  If you only look at how you are not sleeping and your musckle ache and your nose is dry and your legs are tense, you will only see that.  You have to say stop and focus on all the good your body does, and really focus on the good.  How strong your legs are.  How they hold you up.  How your muscles make everything move. 

    Anxiety well every one has it.  We tend to focus on it.  For me it sneaks in when I am really tired, or stressed or even too excited.  But it does not last so long with me.  I have some tools that I have learned and am willing to share them.  First when you wake up.  have a mantra:  I am strong.  I am well.  Today is my day.  I will have a good day with or without anxiety.  Play a uplifting , motivating song * even if you recite it only in your head)  I like this is my fight song.  It empowers me.  I am sure you have a song.  Tell yourself I will take care of my mind and body the best I can.  If I am tired I will sleep.  If I am hungry I will eat and if I am stressed I will do something relaxing/  I will take care of my mind not just my body. 

    When anxiety happens preoccupy your senses and the anxiety will pass.  If the anxiety hits in class, count five things: five people with blond hair, five people with mustaches, etc. You are using your sight sense.  Now feel 4 things.  The back of your chair-how does it feel against your back, the desk, the floor, your shoes, whhatever-now you used the touch sense.  Next, three things you hear: someone talking, a cough, paper crinkling, then 3 things that smell:  Perfume, or your sweatshirt, etc. then one things to use your taste sense.  Water, gum, a mint , even the back of your hand.  You will feel relaxed if not do it again. 

    When you arre having anxiety before bed or anytime, here is another exercise:  Get comfortable.  Laying down, close your eyes , if you can if not, don't worry about it.  Tense up your toes while you count to five and then relax them slowly as you count to five, then do the same with your legs-tense the legs up and count to five and then relax them while counting to five, keep going .  Do every part of your body.  If you are not relaxed do it again.  then you should be relaxed.  if you are still not tired do something that uses your mind like a soduko puzzle.  Watch your breath.  Inhale slowing counting to five hold it for 3 counts then release it counting to 5.  Do the breathing exercise through out the day.   

    You have a lot on your plate.  Give yourself a break.  

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      I’ve tried progressive muscle relaxation and breathing techniques. I do not drink alcohol or caffeine, and I eat regular, healthy meals. I had dealt with anxiety long before college, it just seems college has amplified it. I will try the sensory exercise you mentioned. Hopefully it will bring me a little bit of peace. Thank you so much for your help and kind words.
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    Hey Magoins. I can totally relate to how you’re feeling my anxiety was so strong at my lowest point I developed an eating disorder, on top of my OCD and Anxiety. My anxiety was so bad I couldn’t eat, barely sleep, or even speak to my girlfriend. I was  about 19 when my anxiety was at it’s worst, too. I’m 22 now and it does get better. It may sound cliche, but you are not alone in this. Just remember there are thousands of people who have felt/are feeling the EXACT same way you’re feeling right now. Remembering this has always made me feel a little better. (If you haven’t tried these things already) Try regulating your sleep and setting a bedtime. Do some light exercise for at least 20 minutes a day, and watch your eating habits. Also remember that maybe Prozac isn’t right for you? If you think the medication has something to do with it, you can always talk to your doctor about switching medications or dosage. Good luck
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      It is always comforting to know that I am not alone in this. It can just be difficult to not have people around me that understand. I try to do progressive muscle relaxation exercises once a day, and they seemed to help at first. I will have to talk to my doctor about my dosage. Hopefully it will help. Thank you so much for your kind words and support. 
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      Any time. Just keep checking back and posting on this site if you feel like it helps you. I always come back to this site when I’m having a bad night. 
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    Hi,

    I just had to reply to your post because a really similar thing has happened and is happening to me. I developed this same sort of disorder about 2 years ago when I was a junior in college. I suffer from extreme health anxiety and panic attacks. It started out being a minor annoyance, but it became extremely debilitating. I also got to where I could not sleep because I was scared I would die in my sleep. I also would jolt awake in the middle of the night like my body was trying to tell me I was having a heart attack or stroke or something. This lack of sleep definitely makes the problem worse in my experience, so I would definitely talk to your doctor about your sleep problems. My sleeping has gotten better, but I still suffer from extreme health anxiety and panic attacks. Pretty much every single day I feel that I have some sort of major health problem that needs some urgent attention because my heart is racing or I have shortness of breath etc.   Tonight, in fact, I am worrying about an abdominal aortic aneurysm because my lower abdomen is burning really badly. It is obviously most likely just some random upset stomach, but in my mind, I am convinced it is an actual life threatening condition that needs immediate medical attention. It is very annoying and takes up a lot of my time and attention that could be used on more productive things. My doctor prescribed me an antidepressant, which did help. However, I stopped taking it a few months ago because I felt like it affected my thinking ability. I start graduate school soon and will need all the brain power I can get. I am considering trying therapy soon because I'm fed up. You might ask your doctor about that and if he/she thinks it would be helpful in your case. I sincerely hope you feel better soon. You are not alone. I completely understand what you are going through. I hope you have a good night. 

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