I convince myself that I'm a bad person
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Hi I'm 15. For the last year or so I've struggled to fight those horrible thoughts that come into my head sometimes. I hid it for a long time so now I've reached a point where I think I might actually do it, even though I don't want to, but just because I can. The thing I'm finding the hardest is telling myself it's not true because I've reached a point where I'm sure it is. Does anyone else experience this and can you help me I'm running out of ways to deal with this.
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Aspinan neve03351
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Hi, what sort of thoughts are you having besides feeling your a bad person and what evidence do you have for thinking this? I'm also thinking what you mean when you say you "might actually do it" ..
What I would say is that your not a bad person because you actually care about it and worry about it, a bad person wouldn't care less if you see what I mean.
Tell us what is going thriugh your mind abd what horrible thoughts you have, don't be frightened to open up about it as I guess your thoughts are common on this forum.
Neil
neve03351 Aspinan
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It can be all sorts of things but it's usually that I'll hurt someone. I know it's completely irrational but some thoughts have been there for such a long time because I've worried about them that I've started to believe it's true. I haven't left school yet so it's making me worry about my future and that I might do something awful. I just don't feel in control of myself at times which really scares me.
Aspinan neve03351
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Ok, your not a bad person for having these thoughts abd the reason they continue abd have done for so long is because you have been ruminating over them and thinking about them. The thoughts you have are very common in people with depression and anxiety which are illnesses, these thoughts have no basis and are not true, like you say they are irrational. It's normal for you to worry about your future when you feel this way but let that worry go as the future is just that, the future will be ok for you it will be what it us.
Now what to do about it, you need to unburden yourself by talking to someone about it all, if you can't speak to your parents maybe another family member, a teacher or your Dr. I'd prefer it if you could speak to your Dr who could arrange some therapy for you to teach you how to deal with these intrusive thoughts after which they should go, your Dr will have come across these things many times and could reassure you.
Plenty people on here going through similar things including thoughts if hurting someone so keep posting. Neil
neve03351 Aspinan
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I've spoken to my mum so she knows and I'm going to therapy on Friday. Thank you for your reply it really helped.