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I am a 38 year old male,for the past 20 years I have had w problem with alcohol. I started off as a social drinker but quickly started drinking so much I could not remember anything.the next few days after my being drunk I was terrified of seeing people who had been there that night in case I had upset or angered them.
Unfortunately to 3 days ago I have still been getting drunk off my head but now mainly in the house.I start off with 4 cans thinking I'll be OK but quickly becomes 8,12....
I am also on medications for anxiety which I think is due to alcohol.
I still worry for up to a week after getting drunk and hate it.
I have a beautiful fiance of 7 years,she doesn't like me drinking so much but tolerates it as she doesn't see the anxiety and pain its causing me.
I have lost numerous jobs due to it,for not turning in as am hungover.
After the binges I always seek to get help and quit drinking but then when the anxiety and fear are gone I think I'll be OK to have "just" 4 beers and the whole horrible cycle starts again.
I have never wrote my feelings before but I think now enough is enough and I am determined to quit this evil drug forever!!!!it has caused me so much pain that I hate it..
Does anybody else have the same or similar experience??
Have you been successful?
Any motivation or advice would be extremely appreciated..
Am gonna make sure I don't drink again.
By the way when I don't drink for a few days I feel good....
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