I don't feel like myself. Feedback please.
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I'm 17 and I'm currently a senior. I've suffered from anxiety and depression from about a year but I guess it's at it's peak right now. This is the first time I'm telling anyone this. I don't feel like myself anymore. Almost like something else has taken over me(anxiety). All day I have a constant battle with a voice in my head and I can never seem to quiet it or win. It makes me think of in ordinary thoughts like when I'm in public I think that everyone's making fun of me or all plotting on me. I hate it so that usually refrains me from going out. Like honestly I don't even go to school anymore, I use to go out with my friends a lot and know I just cut them all off because of my accusations. I have no motivation in life anymore, I just feel numb. I use to be so optimistic and now I can't even get out of the house. Nothing even interest me anymore. It's also really hard for me to show any emotion but my head is bubbled with all kinds of emotion. I try to show emotion to my family and I still feel disconnected that's why I can't even tell my mom about how I feel and why I'm like this. I try to be nice and socialize to people but I always get the same reaction like their making fun of me and I just feel alone. Hopefully I'm not the only one.
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Winegod celinenicette96
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Being nice to people and socializing suggests you are a sensitive, caring person which by your nature makes you feel vulnerable when you are down.
It sounds trite to say 'you are not alone' but it is a fact and you will find that when people know what you are going through, that is when they may reveal they are suffering or have suffered the same. People that never have this problem often do not make good confidants as they say things like 'cheer up, it might never happen'- not helpful at all!
Continue you search for someone who is similarly affected- sharing will help!
Also there will be members of staff at your school that are trained to listen to you- find them, talk to them to ease the burden of your thoughts.
JanaDell celinenicette96
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1st get up out of bed and showered and dressed and put on your makeup. It does not matter if you are going out or not. Just do it and you will feel better just doing this.
Next, eat something healthy...with NO SUGAR...like fruit and or veggies and fruit and an egg...no cereal. Drink green tea without sugar...I drink the Diet Arizona Green tea. It's sweet, but has no sugar. Or I drink regular tea or just plain bottled water.
Next go online .You need someone to talk to. So do keep coming to here and find other boards where you can actually chat about your depression. To find the other boards, go to Google and put in a search for [depression, teenager, chat (or message board)]. Look at the posts and only stay if you feel comfortable with the people who are posting. You want to find a board where people are giving ideas of what worked for them. Yes it's good that people post how they feel, but it's also very important that people tell what has worked for them.
Next message boards are a great help, but talking with someone who is right there with you, someone who will be emphatic is ultra important. If a member of your family is emphatic & understanding and will listen, no matter how long or when you need to talk, then do consider telling that person, so they can support you when you are feeling down.
Next I urge you to tell your medical Dr. He/she can't tell anyone you've talked to them, unless you tell them to and your Dr. can give you referals and meds 9If you need them...but do look at natural ways of getting over depression, on the web.
As for school...well..neither did I like it very much until I was much much older. I hated school...but I've also learned that was because I had learning difficulties. So going to school and the pressure from my parents to get great grades was really difficult. Once I found out how to deal with my learning problem, school became much more fun, but sadly I didn't learn that until I was much older.
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As for your mood...are you eating or drinking anything with sugar? I'll bet you are...most people do. Stop eating any sugar and get off the carbs(breads, cookies, chips, cake,...that sort of thing that is made with flour) i. Both cause all levels of depression and the feelings of not being interested in anything and the feeling of just wanting to veg. I know this to be a fact. I still fight it all the time. Try eating strawberries, blue berries, watermelon, and applesauce....to satisfy the need for sweets. Try eating baked a whole baked yam (it's full of vitamins that I'll bet you are low in) Try swapping out red meat for ground turkey or chicken. Try sugar free jello. If you don't like taking vitmin pills, try drinking a product that has lots of vitamins and B12 in it with no sugar...Zip Fiz (you can get it at health food stores or Costco and at some drug stores). Call around and see who has it. Also instead of any kind of soda drinks, try flavored tea with stevia (for sweetness) & or green tea. I like the diet Arazona green tea, that most grocery stores carry
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All these things add up to your recovery from depression. For the most part, no one thing will make you all better. It will take you doing various things.....and the sum of those is what will make you better.
There are a number of herbs that will help you, but I'm not going to suggest them as you need to read up on what herbs will help you and make your own choice as to which to try, but if you do try any herb, give it at least 7 days to work. Some work within 15 min. Others may take a week or so.
Again, you really need to tell your Dr. so he/she can help you get better help. I'm quite certain they will recommend you to a psychologist (or therapist). Finding a therapist that you feel comfortable with, is a bit of a challenge. So know that you might have to try a few different therapists. My self, I would go to an AMA approved psychologist who specialized in depression and who is currently working with other teens. By the time you get to this point you will be much further down the road to recovery, but do still go to talk with the therapist. Don't be surprised if your Dr. wants to give you meds. With many depressed people, the fastest way to get them back on the road to recovery is with medication for a short time.
1) .Know you can get past this, just tell yourself over and over that you feel better and more in control. Repeat this at least 5 times every waking hour.
2) On 5-10 pieces of paper hand write..."I'm making my life better" then tape those pieces of paper where ever your eyes look the most...I'd put 1 in the bathroom on the mirror, on your bedside lamp, on your mirror in the bedroom, 1 next to the light switch into your closet, 1 on the refrigerator....you get the idea.
3) Find someone to talk to (a friend or an adult you like & trust) also at the same time, start to work on your diet. Get off the sugar and carbs (breads cookies, cakes, chips) as well as get off candy and ice cream. All those things will just make you feel worse. If possible just go on an all vegie and fruit diet for a week. I think doing that alone will bring you some relief.
4) Look online and find chat sites and or other message boards where their main focus is depression. Be sure to come back and let us know how you are doing.
5) Go to your Dr. and get a referral to psychologist or therapist. Look that person(s) up on the Internet. See if you think you'd feel comfortable with them and if they have treated depression and teens. If their major focus of their practice is not treating depression, then move on & look for another Dr.If by some chance your Dr. won't give you a recommendation or money is a problem, then you can always call the county. Most counties have free medical help...which includes psychologist in most states.
There's tons more I could tell you about depression, but I don't' want to overwhelm you, so do start with the things above..
Good Luck....I'm quite sure you can get better, with just a bit of effort from your self.
JanaDell celinenicette96
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JanaDell celinenicette96
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1st get up out of bed and showered and dressed and put on your makeup. It does not matter if you are going out or not. Just do it and you will feel better just doing this.
Next, eat something healthy...with NO SUGAR...like fruit and or veggies and fruit and an egg...no cereal. Drink green tea without sugar...I drink the Diet Arizona Green tea. It's sweet, but has no sugar.
Next go online .You need someone to talk to. So do keep coming to here, and find other boards where you can actually chat about your depression. To find the other boards, go to Google and put in a search for [depression, teenager, chat (or message board)]. Look at the posts and only stay if you feel comfortable with the people who are posting
Next talking with someone who is right there with you, someone who will be emphatic is ultra important. If a member of your family is emphatic & upstanding and will listen, no matter how long or when you need to talk, then do consider telling that person, so they can support you when you are feeling down.
Next I urge you to tell your medical Dr. He/she can't tell anyone you've talked to them, unless you tell them to.
As for school...well..neither did I like school much until I was much much older. I hated school...but I've also learned that was because I had learning difficulties. So going to school and the pressure from my parents & teachers to get great grades was really difficult. Once I found out how to deal with my learning problem, school became much more fun, but sadly I didn't learn that until I was much older.
.As for your mood...are you eating or drinking anything with sugar? I'll bet you are...most people do. Stop eating any sugar and get off the carbs(breads, cookies, chips, cake,...that sort of thing that is made with flour) i. Both cause all levels of depression and the feelings of not being interested in anything and the feeling of just wanting to veg. I know this to be a fact. I still fight it all the time. Try eating strawberries, blue berries, watermelon, and applesauce....to satisfy the need for sweets. Try eating baked a whole baked yam (it's full of vitamins that I'll bet you are low in) Try swapping out red meat for ground turkey or chicken. Try sugar free jello. If you don't like taking vitamin pills, try drinking a product that has lots of vitamins and B12 in it with no sugar...Zip Fiz (you can get it at health food stores or Costco and at some drug stores). Call around and see who has it. Also instead of any kind of soda drinks, try flavored tea with stevia (for sweetness) & or green tea. I like the diet Arizona green tea, that most grocery stores carry
.All these things add up to your recovery from depression. For the most part, no one thing will make you all better. It will take you doing various things.....and the sum of those is what will make you better.
There are a number of herbs that will help you, but I'm not going to suggest them as you need to read up on what herbs will help you and make your own choice as to which to try, but if you do try any herb, give it at least 7 days to work. Some work within 15 min. Others may take a week or so.
Again, you need to talk with someone you feel comfortable with (a friend, but preferable an adult you respect and trust) Next you really need to tell your Dr. so he/she can help you get better help. I'm quite certain they will recommend you to a psychologist (or therapist). Finding a therapist that you feel comfortable with, is a bit of a challenge. So know that you might have to try a few different therapists. My self, I would go to an AMA approved psychologist who specialized in depression and who is currently working with other teens. By the time you get to this point you will be much further down the road to recovery, but do still make sure you go to a therapist. You need to get to root of why this happened and you need to learn how to deal with it if it ever comes up again.I can almost promise you that if you don't learn the cause and how to deal with various feelings this will happen again.. Don't be surprised if your Dr. wants to give you meds. With many depressed people, the fastest way to get them back on the road to recovery is with medication for a short time. there's tons more I could tell you about depression, but I don't' want to overwhelm you, so do start with the things above..
celinenicette96 JanaDell
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NameGene celinenicette96
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I'm sure you have spoken with a professional and hoped it has helped. The
way I'm interperterting your post is, you developed a social anxiety disorder.
You feel like everyone is judging, making fun of, looking at you. I feel the same
way as you. I brought this disorder out by using hallucinogenic drugs. One day
I was popular as hell, the next day I flipped out and didn't want to be around anyone. I call this, "the day I changed". This disorder would have taken care of itself if I didn't use drugs, now that I brought it out, I have to deal with it. I walk around like a paranoid freak, always looking to see if anyone is looking at me.
This is just a post to let you know that you are not alone.
hassaan124 celinenicette96
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I have the exact same feeling. Let me know if you still have them and we can talk on it a bit.
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