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I feel like giving up! my meds(venlafaxine, 225mg) are helping me appear normal but whenever i am on my own it all crowds in. I am either in a stupor, not able to do anything or I want to run round and expend as much energy as I possibley can. not hungry anymore, definately don't eat more than 500 cals a day. I know that wont help my mood but it is the only thing i can control.
i can't carry on like this, it has been like this for ages. had appoint today with psychologist (saw her for cbt sessions 2006-7) not sure what is going to be offered, hope something else but will have to wait for ages anyway. sure that cause i still work at the pub they don't think i am that bad - still sort of functioning but if the only way I am going to get help faster is by giving up then i will.
struggle all the time with thougts that normal people don't have, is taking all my remaining strength not to act on them.
what a waste of space i am, thought this may help but still feel terrible, can't even log onto the chatroom as my computor not enabled.
don't know what to do anymore :blue:
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