I don't know how to fell better about myself.
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My boyfriend and I have been dating for a long time and we are long distance. My best friend asked me if porn was cheating and before I replied to her I discussed it with him, in which we came to the conclusion that it's not but it feels like you have been cheated on. While talking about it with him I asked if he still watched it because I've sent him loads of things (100+) that he had asked for and I do think he should. He told me he doesn't anymore then told me he had lied by the end of the night while I was in the middle of work. I felt terrible about myself but what made me feel worse is that he told me he watches a single girl. Not girl on guy or anything but one girl and I feel so hurt by that. I feel like that's 1on1 and complete cheating. Every time I look in the mirror I feel so worthless and terrible about myself. Like I'm not good enough or that my body is unwanted. How can I get out of this pain?.. it's unbearable.
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bryce_31327
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socialrobert bryce_31327
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Bryce, First of all, do not overreact to what I am going to tell you. I understand how emotional being in Love can make you. You must understand if you want to get through this. The problem with most men and women is that they have sexual urges caused by a build up of hormones in the blood. If you are away from each other for a long time he will be distracted by other stimuli. This relationship is not the best type of relationship for you or him. If you are not getting what you put in' it might not be the best thing to hang on. Especially if you are wasting years of your life being lonely, worrying and getting depressed. Where is the happiness in that. You want to be happy all the time or at least most of the time. Tell him to either come home or marry a porno mag. I am sure if he values you enough he will come home. Men and Women can fancy millions of opposite sex and he probably saw his type and she gave him relief for a small amount of time and he did not engage in a more complex fantasy. That is what most people do with porn unless they are away a relationship for a prolonged amount of time. Remember this, there aint nothing like the real thing. If you really are in Love' give him a maintenance call. Show him what he is missing. You are experiencing some rejection feelings and if so, cry it out and look for someone who really wants you. I know how hard it can be to find a partner and we build ourselves up and invest all our hopes and dreams in to a relationship and it is big let down when it goes wrong. Get yourself an extra box of tissues, cry it all out, pick yourself up and dust yourself off. Most of all do not think there is something wrong with you. Remember this, If your Mother and Father found each other attractive enough to make you, there must be a man out there who LOVES YOU. If you need more, keep in touch. A big CUDDLE to keep you going. Robert.