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I don't know what's in me?

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shaun09778
shaun09778

Im 25 working

I don't know what's in me. I am wondering what did happen to me this past few years .

I used to he a happy and adventurous type of person. I used to travel a lot . Make new friends, eating whatever i want to and an active gamer .

It started 1 year ago when i feel this unexplained emotion of tiredness .

I started sleeping almost most of my free time. I don't enjoy going out like I used to be. I feel like i want to seclude my self in my room and sleep . Now i don't enjoy being with other peoples company.

I enjoy myself alone now , and I feel suffocating whenever i am with my friends . And now i used to ditch all of them .

I never reply to any of their messages . I just don't feel like interacting with anyone anymore.

And now i used to skip meals i dont feel like eating in time or sometimes i forget to eat and just drink coffee instead . I lost weight .

Whenever my family will tell me problems it feels like i am useless . I just cant solve things easily it felt like its piling and piling and i feel full of it .

I used to play online games last time most of the time. Yes im kinda one of a gamers last time but now I feel this is kinda boring .

My gf broke our relationship year ago.

And it feels like . Its okay i don't cry or feel bad about it its like .

Okay its done .

She told me i used to be affectionately attached to her .

You can't blame her we've been together for 8 years . She suspected i have another gf here ( understandable since i go to foreign land )

I do tell her all the time that i am busy at work and no time for that .

I never even date anyone here. Its just that i stop communicating with her and any of my friends back home it feels like i don't want to talk to them anymore .

Just a simple text like happy birthday is enough i don't engage myself in long conversation.

Until she told me she's tired and broke us up .

I never feel sad . And just continue my life and how it used to be.

I do feel shaky sometimes especially when i think i am going to face something a problem or whatever and i don't know why . I do feel quite hard to calm myself whenever i get upset on some of the things i had experience .

I lost interest of engaging friendship with other peers. And contented to be alone . The do call me weirdo because of that and i dont feel bad about it because i feel its true .

It was like i am living yet i am dead inside .

I do easily feel agitated even in small things. Feels irritated and feeling like everyone is talking behind my back. I do overthink most of the time regarding to what will happen tomorrow or whatever .

I have this unexplained tiredness most of the time .

Everything seems to be perfectly for me. No commitments. No distractions . Just me and my time alone. No engagement and no interaction . And i feel contented with it.

I don't know what's in me but i feel okay with it

Is their anyone who has the same case like me?

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  • sam18386
    sam18386 shaun09778

    Posted

    hi shaun, being like this is NOT ok. it's you isolating yourself and none of us know why. what. happened back then? what changed? why don't you speak to people? loneliness is common loneliness and enjoying it is not so common. you need to find outif there are physical reasons why youre not doing so well, you are physically cutting people out. there could be a physical problem with your body that has caused this, more likely there's an emotional reason why this has happened. nobody can solve this only you, if you want to. ask for bloods, certain mineral deficiencies can cause you to feel this down. speak to your doctor or someone please. you are in danger of becoming a recluse. doesn't that feel lonely? good luck, not funny! 👎😢

  • jan34534
    jan34534 shaun09778

    Posted

    from everything you said, sounds like you most likely are suffering from severe depression.

    you say that everything’s OK and you liked being secluded, however humans biological and chemical make up is to be social, at least to some extent.

    it would be very helpful for you to get some support with this. Speak with a counselor or therapist even though you don’t want to be around people this is something that is vital to your recovery. And it just helps to vent to somebody else everything that’s going on in your life. You could even do a virtual appointment if you don’t wanna go anywhere.

    Depression can be managed and you can feel better! You don’t have to be somebody that’s always going out but at least you will feel better with yourself and your life will be much more enjoyable! ❤

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