I don't know whats wrong with me. Anyone?
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Hi everyone,
I'm 28,
I want to explain my story because I think I'm losing my mind.
So everything started after I had a panic attack for misuse of co-codamol and it happened while driving.
I started feeling like I was going to have a heart attack everyday I was certain somthing bad was going to happen.
I was put on 20mg fluoxetine (it ruined my stomach)
So I asked to change after having to call the crisis team at this point I was bad I was put onto sertraline 100mg, I had an alright few weeks until I was driving again and turned my head to look out of the window and looked back and went super dizzy. After this I no longer had heart problems but I convinced myself I had a brain tumor.
I went to the doctors the told me there's no tumor I had an ECG, blood test the full checks.
So I left feeling pretty good. The reassurance felt good.
Now I'm on 20mg citalopram and have been for around 6 weeks.
I feel I'm at my worst I have this problem where I can't look at my self or look at my hands I have this overwhelming thought process of its locked in my mind I feel dizzy when I think talk or hear about anxiety it's running my life I've tried to just snap out of whatever is going on and it's impossible I never had depression before it was just a few heart palpitations and tbh I would happily go back to feeling that way over this I can't work out if it's the medication (too high or too low) or if I even need medication. I'm scared I feel like im not real I can't talk to anyone about it because it makes it worse even when I'm writing this it's overwhelming. It's worse in the morning but at some point in the day I'm guaranteed a panic attack big or small and this feeling of Derealization / depersonalization thing its freaking me out. I also feel this extremely bad when I'm out talking to people my voice sounds weird. I just want to know that I'm OK.
I can manage to get myself out of DPDR but it brings back all of my anxiety big time.
and I don't know what's better
my anxiety symptoms are severe dizziness and when I'm not thinking about that it's my chest pains and racing heart. I also can Just be watching somthing and all of a sudden ill think of something bad and it give me a jumpy sensation like someone's made me jump but only from a thought.
long story I know. anyone help?
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lisa215 ben53261
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Hello Ben
I'm not sure that I cam give you any answers but I really do understand how you feel and what you are going through. Mu main issue is dizziness and balance problems. Mine also started when I had a panic attack while I was driving back in June last year. Since then I've had unsteadiness practically all the time. It has impacted every part of my life, from work to looking after my elderly mother. Like you, I've had an ECG because of palpitations and some blood tests to check for anaemia, vitamin deficiencies and thyroid problems, these all came back as normal. I also have a feeling of being disconnected from everything, to the point that I don't feel that I have a place in this world anymore. Its not a good feeling. I hoped that having the tests would make me feel better, but I have now convinced myself that I have a brain tumour or some other awful disease. I think this is the nature of the beast that is anxiety. It's a horrible thing. I've had health anxiety most of my adult life, but these last few months have been the worst I've ever felt. I've just started some CBT but I'm not hopeful that it will help. I guess the reason for the reply is to say that you're not alone. I hope for better days for us all. Take care and be kind to yourself x
sasical72 ben53261
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Hi,
Yes, I know exactly what you are talking about. And it's not easy to get out of that state once you are in it but it can be done.
A way of doing it is by setting yourself a very strict routine and following it to a T, that way you give your brain and frazzled nerves a chance to rest & recover because you don't have to think.
For example 8am get up, 8.15 exercise, 9 shower, etc etc, included in this routine there should always be some exercise, reading, puzzles or mandala painting and healthy eating.
If you follow this correctly, you will see that in time you begin to recover. This is how I did my recovery from a complete mental and physical breakdown.
Good luck and let me know if you have any questions and of course, never mess with any drugs. People always think they might kill you, but there are actually even worse things they can do to you.
michelle45874 ben53261
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hi ben
I have been on citalopram for over 6 years now when I first had a panic attack it came out of the blue . It took me 9 weeks to get back to feeling relatively normal there were times that were really low im not going to lie but there will be a light at the end of the tunnel . I downloaded an anxiety app I must have listened to that so many times also with the citalopram it does feel worse before it gets better . As time goes on you learn the trigger points do your breathing techniques that helps . I am going through a blip myself at the moment although not nice i am managing it . please hang in there you will get back to how you were
melanie21263 ben53261
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Hi
I just want you to know your not alone. I have been suffering with anxiety for most of my adult life and at the moment it's the worse it's ever been. My main focus is my health even though I've had every test going and been reassured by doctors that I am healthy. I suffer with dizziness 24/7. I get chest pain, random arm pain, a fuzzy head feeling and I'm just exhausted all the time. I have two children and I just want to feel better for them. These forums have helped me so much because I honestly thought I was the only person who felt like this. Please speak to your doctor about the way your feeling, they can help! I really hope you find a way to deal with it soon.