I don’t see the point in living
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I know its a bad thing to say. But I just wish I was dead. or didnt have to live as a disappointment to everyone. Nothing I do is every enough. I am so in love with my partner and getting married in 10 days, but I feel like he is only marrying me out of cultural obligation. I feel from his words that he feels trapped. I dont make him happy. I dont make anyone happy. I just dont see the point in trying anymore. And when I get angry I feel like harming myself to divert my attention.
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zainab81505
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I am not trying to gain sympathy . I just typed in I wish I was dead in google and this site popped up. I typed in google because I was too scared to type it in the chat with him and I really wanted to just put it out there. I hate this feeling. I hate everything.
jan34534 zainab81505
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there is not a way to start a marriage. Both people need to be on the same page about everything or just about everything.
when my daughter got married, she married her best friend . he is so good to her and they have great communication
. It is so important in a marriage. no one should get married out of obligation. That is a recipe for disaster.
It’s important to really not only love the person you’re marrying but like the person you’re marrying .you should have many things in common.
also, before you try to make anybody else happy, you need to make yourself happy, because if you don’t you won’t have anything to give anybody else.Focus on yourself and what your needs are. We can’t really love anybody else if we don’t love ourselves
. I hope everything works out for you
sam18386 zainab81505
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hi zainab, this is wrong. what has happened? is this to do with your husband or is it something else? i felt nervous getting married but never like this! you need to think what you want! have you ever really loved him? do you feel this is right? do other situations make you feel like this? if this is the only thing that makes you feel like this, this probably isn't the right thing! really think about this, maybe seek someone else's support? i was scared as i have been really damaged in the past but now i an married i wish i'd met my husband years ago. bless you, think what you want, if this is more than just nerves you have to speak up.
heidi15861 zainab81505
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Hey Zaina, bless your heart, I hear you sweetheart. I understand every word. I'm sat here feeling the EXACT same, I'm married, and unhappy, he is wonderful, but I don't feel good enough. maybe we could cry on each others shoulder? sending huge hugs ❤️
bernipes zainab81505
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I'm sorry you're feeling this way, Zainab, but you need to know that our life is not about making others proud or happy.
You don't have the obligation or even the ability to make someone happy, just as no one can do it for you. We do need to give the best of ourselves to the people around us, but this doesn't mean that we are their source of happiness.
I think you should rethink your marriage, talk to your fiancé and try to find out how he feels about it.
You won't solve all your doubts in one week. You should see a psychologist and work on yourself first.
I wish you all the best and send you a virtual hug 😃