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Hey, im 19 years old, just moved from my home with my family to student housing in university. I am staying with my best friend for 8 years, and an international student, and a 36 year old guy.
The problem is, ever since I have moved here, I can't get my head straight, I had an on and off relationship with a girl for roughly 3 years, first love etc etc. We were planning on moving on since departing to uni, but neither of us can do it on our own it seems. But I feel like I just cant get away from looking for her. I didn't really feel this way about her previously, but now it feels stronger than ever. Im also not coping too well with being away from my immediate family, as I had 2 brothers and a sister, so I was always with people. Now I cant seem to organise anything, I can't think straight, i unfortunately get overwhelmed when on my own and start to.. cry.. Yes.. I have never been one to get overwhelmed with emotion, but the past 2 weeks i have 0 focus, I havent been doing any of my hobbies, and I cant concentrate in uni or build a solid social circle. I tried going out clubbing and partying, but I just see everyone else having a good time, so I just leave- go home and pretty much just shut myself out from the world.
I can't get this feeling off of me, I wake up not wanting to wake up, I go to sleep hoping to never wake.. Feeling like there is an unbearable burden upon my shoulders that I just cant lift.
Im just looking for some advice, maybe a reason or anything. As my head has never been all over the place so much so that I need to ask for help. I dont know what to do with myself..
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