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i wrote all this before but i don't think i pressed send so sorry if you already replied to this
i never feel extreme emotion i feel happy and sad (i think) but never excited or distraught
and other people have been noticing as well as i don't ever seem to have motivation in me,
i start to question why i do things for other people like am i nice and helpful or am i just helping them for my own agenda of getting them to like me (or love me ect) like am i buying my mate flowers cos she's a good friends who needs a pick me up and this would be a nice gesture or am i buying flowers cos i think she's pretty and i want to be with her and i'm never sure which ones the answer (i hope it isn't the latter )
as for family i don't really get along with my mother as i'm jobless at 27 we argue a lot (not that i never had a job mind ) she constantly yells at me how much of a burden i am and how i'm the cause of her depression and she is so disappointed (friends say i should yell and argue back and not just take the yelling but i cant really stand up for myself ) i've never bonded with other family members either my brother and i don't get along well and only people i talk to are my friends.
i end up thinking i sound depressed but then i think if im depressed i wont think im depressed and that im just looking for an excuse for myself, then i get caught up in the analasis of my analasis and end up playing games or watching movies just to take my mind of things and not get anything done in the end
im just asking for your opinions on if i do sound like somethings wrong and what i should do if thats the case. thank you all in advanced
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