I feel like a failure.
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i recently messed up an opportunity that would've meant huge things for me. i have been diagnosed with both depression and general anxiety disorder, and i'm getting worse and worse as the summer approaches. i really don't know exactly why i feel so numb all of a sudden, but i'm having trouble feeling. im in school, and i don't work, and my home life is fine, but i feel horrible all the time and i have a really hard time figuring out why. i get that its probably my mental health going downhill again, but when i don't see any point to living except to care for the people i care about, everything becomes more and more difficult. i really don't know the goal of this, but if someones out there, it'd help to hear what you think.
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richard89308 elyse91566
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georgeGG elyse91566
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I am retired and you are at school but I recognise your symptoms for they were mine too. I was in the queue for therapy but things got steadily worse and worse until it was very dangerous indeed. I then got primary Talking Therapy and Secondary medication therapy simultaneously. The medication kept me safe and after ten Talking Therapy sessions the depression and anxiety were fully controlled.
I understand from your note that you are not receiving any therapy. I would recommend that you are very clear with your GP how you feel and that it is only your responsibility to the people you care about that keeps you persevering through this difficult time. I do hope you will seek professional help without delay. Depression is an illness and not just a mood; the mood is a simptom.
I wish you all the best. The present low mood is a temporary condition; the future can be good and happy.
elyse91566 georgeGG
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betsy0603 elyse91566
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elyse91566 betsy0603
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allison30388 elyse91566
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I felt so desperate to feel than be numb so I saw a counselor and I also saw a nutritionist. I'm not into medication if I can help it so my nutritionist gave me supplements to help my body out and I saw a counselor who helped me with CBT.
elyse91566 allison30388
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betsy0603 elyse91566
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Our thinking leads to our distress, but guess what? We aren't slaves to our thoughts; they do not run us, though it may seem like it. We can choose what thoughts to have. When you find yourself starting a negative thought train, stop and notice it. Take three deep breathes, focusing on the sensation of the fall and rise of the belly. Feel your presence. This is Mindfulness, and it is a very powerful yet simple way to interupt and diffuse depressive thoughts. Guided meditations are very good as well. Do a web search on all of these and you will find all kinds of helpful sources. You are in charge :-)