I feel like a scared yo yo
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Ok how's everyone on mirt doing .?
Been on mirt now for about 10 weeks now . 7 weeks at 30mg 3 weeks on 45mg and propranolol 60mg a day.
Was on sertraline for 3 months wich made me suicidal.
At first mirt did help me . I like the fact that I can actually sleep for 7 to 8 hrs a night and eating better. However things went down hill and hence the increase to 45mg. This helped at first but the last week I've been slipping down hill again 😯. Was referred to see a psychiatrist by my gp 4 months ago. When I was last at the gp I mentioned to him that i still hadn't heard from them . He said they had replied to him and they had declined my referral and they should have sent me a copy of the letter. But it seems like they fogot. Thanks nhs. Declined and didn't even let me know . I've now been referred for cbt. Had a follow up phone call from a counsellor who have agreed to give me one to one counselling. They also booked me in to a local college on a course dealing with panic and anxiety e.t.c . I agreed to this even though it fills me with fear to attend the course . I should be on the course within one or two weeks following the telephone call. This was three weeks ago and yet again I've heard nothing. I've taken diazepam three times this week as i can feel my self losing it again.
I don't rely feel like carrying on much more feeling like this. But I do mainly for my dad's sake, as I lost my mum to cancer 5 years ago and I couldn't put him through anymore ( he knows nothing of my depression and anxiety that I've had for 20 years)
But I'm fed up feeling scared.
Has any one combined mirtazapine with any other anti depressants with success? I'm ment to go away travelling in December . I cancelled it last year because of my anxiety and panic got the better of me and I feeling like doing the same again this year 😓. But now I'm getting desperate and December is approaching fast .😢
Thx for reading
Rich
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lauren56321 rich98378
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pixie22 rich98378
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oldboy rich98378
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I suggest that you Google "mirtazapine" and look for comments from patients (such as on this website). You will find far more information that way (such as from me).
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Calmer rich98378
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Sorry for your long term suffering. Â I've read many times about people going up the scales on Mirt' from 15, to 30 then 45 having problems .... some it just makes their symptoms worse. Â Like Oldboy, I think getting yourself settled on another compatible AD whiolst taking Mirt' - and then, and ony then (when settled) very slowly wd from Mirt and stay at 15 mg for sleep aid, very very good for sleep on the lower dose (wd should take a few months, 10% lower every 3 weeks or so. Â
Hope this helps, maybe, just maybe, a discussion with your Dad could be a very big relief.
Wishing you well Rich.
rich98378
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Nice to see you still on here calmer and pixie ☺ hope you both doing well?
Take care all and speak soon Rich
Joeytrib rich98378
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betsy0603 rich98378
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I went off of Effexor last year and didn't realize that the horrid "relapse" that occurred afterwards was actually withdrawal. Â My p-doc put me on Mirt, 7.5 mg to start, because I couldn't sleep or eat. Â Like you, I was happy to be able to seep again, but quickly the low does wasn't holding me. Â He told me it was safe, gentle and that I oould play with it, increasing as needed. Â Before I knew it, within one month, I was up to 37.5 mg and totally apathetic, no motivation, depressed, agoraphobic, couldn't get off the couch. Â Finally, he reinstated the Effexor at the low dose of 37.5 mg and within one hour of taking it, I felt 1000% better. Â He called the combo California Rocket Fuel.
Soon thereafter, I learned about AD withdrawal, and the fact that i responed to my old drug within the hour confirmed to me that all the anxiety, depression, confusion, lack of concentration, poor memory and insomnia (not to mention a slew of physical symptoms) were due to withdrawal from Effexor. Â Now I am faced with tapering the mirt because it quit working and caused me to gain weight. Â
I look back on 20 years of AD use and see that I was chemically lobotomized. Â I want off of all of it. Â I am doing a slow taper of the mirt, 10% per month, and then I will work on the Effexor again.
Mirt is known to be difficult to get off of, so if you ever decide you don't want to take it anymore, DO NOT GO COLD TURKEY OFF OF IT! Â You will suffer greatly and fail. Â Many have tried and failed. Â You must take it slow. Â
No pill will fix you or any of us. Â These drugs end up not working, but the docs put you all the way up to the highest dose before deciding it isn't working, and then you are stuck because it is not advised to go off of these drugs too quickly! Â The docs will have you beiieve otherwise, and put you on a too fast taper schedule, and when all goes south, they will say you have relapsed and need to be on drugs! Â Please be careful! Â
Would you say that you are worse off now than you were before the mirt?
I wish I had found proper therapy all those years ago before I took that first pill that I thought would fix it all. Â The therapy I had was talk therapy and it did nothing to change the distorted thoughts and feelings I had, the low self esteem and black and white thinking that caused my depression. Â Therapy that helps us identify distorted thinking and learn to have compassion and love for ourselves will take you much further than any drug. Â I have been on several different ones over the last 20 years and know! Â
I wish you peace in your journey!
rich98378 betsy0603
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I had been on fluoxetine for many years 20 mg and 40 mg and it did work. I decided to quit it a year or so ago and went from 40 mg to nothing in a week. Apart from getting irritable more easily that was the only side effect I got so I was lucky. However circumstances changed and I decided to go on a different ad (sertraline) and that sent me mental in many ways so swapped from 100mg of sert to 30mg of mirt over night. And then 45 mg This I found to be much better apart from last week where I had a bit of a relapse.
Still waiting for the counselling so will carry on with the mirtazapine for now and see what happens. Wishing you the best Rich