I feel like I'm doing everything wrong

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My anxiety has always related in some ways to who I am as a person, and how other people perceive me. Just recently, I've been overanalysing everything I say and do at work, and truly, honestly believing that I'm just faling at everything. I love my job, I couldn't imagine doing anything else. But suddenly it feels as if it's not for me. And I get this tight, shaky feeling in my chest at the thought of having to leave because I'm crap at it. I'll say something or suggest something and then clam up, realising I've said the wrong thing. "Oh, crap I shouldn't have said that. Now I'm gonna get sacked or become a laughing stock or maybe people will realise how stupid I am." Or "Oh, that's right. Why didn't I know that? I should have known that! God, I'm so stupid!"

It was getting to the point today where I felt close to having a panic attack or just begging them to let me go home because my anxiety levels are through the roof. I really don't want to leave, but at the moment, I feel like I'm holding them back, or that somehow I'm detrimental to the team and the people we're there to help. 

What can I do? Because it's really, really becoming a problem, not just in work but outside of work. Last time this was an issue, my anxiety built up stronger over time, snowballing as other issues held on. It got to the point where I near enough had a complete breakdown and was wondering around the house at 3 in the morning and refusing to eat. I don't want to get like this again, because the intrusive thoughts that went with this spike darn near finished me off. But I can feel it building up again and I don't know how to control it!

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    Could i ask what job you do? Im an electrician and get all the symptoms that you do. I think confidence is key with work. If you are good at your job then im sure you wont get sacked. Maybe you just need to think a bit more about the suggestions you want to make at work. For me overcoming scary situations with success is one thing that boosts my confidence. If im given responsibilty i never shy from it even thow im scared stiff. Then when things go right my mood and my way of thinking improves. Take your time and do your job at your own pace. You can speed up after you have mastered your craft. I always say if you want it done right its gona take that bit longer. Also these days employers cant just sack you especially if your suffering from anxiety. Is an illness just like a cold.
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      I work in care. So if I mess up, people are going to suffer because of me. But this, and writing is one of the few things I want to suceed in. Everyone does tell me I'm doing well, and that I shouldn't worry (which is like telling a cat not to purr), but I can't help seem to overthink every little mistake that I make, That's helped me in the past. Like today, I took a phone call, something that terrifies me but thens traigh after I came back with ten million counter arguments that told me what I did wrong.

      Thank you so much for this!

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      I think you should look into cognitive behavioural therapy. The doctors should sort that out for you. All i will say is think long and hard about meds because they are rough. And when you feel rough you will get anxiety and start panicing. Vicious circle aint it
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    This isn't something I'm familiar with I suffer health anxiety, but I think you need to speak to some1, family or gp, I hope you find something that helps ☺
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