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I've never done or posted anything like this but I don't know what to do; more specifically I just want to know if I'm actually going crazy. My father died 10 months ago while I was in job training and unable to see him. Once I got to my job, my grandmother died. Soon after my other grandmother was diagnosed with terminal cancer and not even a week ago my grandfather died. My mom isn't in my life at all and my other Dad left me without a clue where he was going or how to get in contact with him about 3 weeks ago now. My whole family's gone and I have no one left at 19. I've been struggling for these 10 months but after these last couple of weeks I started to have really bad nightmares about my Dad, I struggle to sleep, eat, and I can barely concentrate for long periods of time. I started feeling like my Dad was standing next to me or I'll see him standing somewhere. Sometimes I think that other people are my Dad for a moment. Sometimes I think he's talking to me (not from the beyond the grave though, I just actually think he's standing somewhere and talking to me). I have a chronic headache, I'm sick to my stomach at times, I'm very tired and feel ill. I get anxious when I have to talk about it but my hands will start to minimally shake if I feel at all pressured. I work in a very stressful government job so my job stress and co-workers can make it harder. I've talked to a psychiatrist but no one's giving me any answers. My true problem though is that I really think I'm actually going crazy. Maybe it's a poor reaction to grief but I've searched high a low for others experiencing the honest-to-God breakdown I'm having and I've found nothing. Please, please help me. I don't know what else to do.
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