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Hi all I went to see a Neurologist last week. I've been experiencing a few worrying symptoms like shaking losing my train of thought in the middle of a sentence, muscle spasms, vision problems to name a few. Anyway, I rolled into his office (I'm in a wheelchair by the way) and he was lovely he listened to me and kept looking me in the eye and only now and again writing things down. I was just expecting him to say not to worry and let's just do some test. But he started talking about my already diagnosed back condition Spondylolisthesis ( yes it's a mouth full) my Fibromyalgia, IBS and said " Has anyone talked about Spina Biffida with you? Or MS?" My jaw could of hit the floor. Back three years ago I had an operation to stabilise my lower back they also found three stress fractures that couldn't be explained. I'm now being told Spina Biffida is a real possibility and that it would explain a lot so why am I so FREAKED OUT, I'm finding myself thinking is having SB better than having
MS ? but how on earth can I think that ? They are two different things! I'm not doing myself any favours, I start thinking one thing and I end up causing an avalanche in my mind and giving myself a migraine! For a long time now I've wanted someone to tell me what's wrong with me no matter what it is and now I'm scared 😥 I'm most definitely my own worse enemy!
Im sorry I've ranted on a bit, but your the only people I know of that understands. My husband is great he looks after so well, but, I don't think he really gets it. I don't want to say this to him but I repeat myself so much when he asks me if I'm ok I don't want to shout yell and scream which how I feel inside. I just needed to rant a bit.
Thanks everyone for listening
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