i feel like im dying
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how can peri make me feel this sick
it started jan 2016 but past 3 months have beem horrible. i wake up at 5am feeling so sick. i am beyond tired everyday all day ( prob cause i dont sleep much ) and my body doesnt feel good. i feel like i am slowly dying and even tho all my tests come back normal ( and i havr had a lot ) that they are missing something thats gonna kill me. my constant upset stomach/trapped air burping/ feeling unsteady when i walk is the worst one, amxiety, feel like i have ongoing flu.
please ease my mind and tell me im not alone. this seriously needs to stop. its putting me into depression
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roben88817 kim74983
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you so are not alone!!! i’m a year now without my period and once I reach that year I have severe anxiety I was suffering from depression I could not leave my bedroom for two weeks I would only go downstairs grab a little something to eat go back upstairs my digestive system is all out of whack I have that fear of dying also I have that fear of leaving my children and my grandchildren my husband and my sister and all my loved ones. My sister has the symptoms of always the fear of her having a heart attack I am going for a colonoscopy in the middle of January and I’m gonna talk to the doctor about some digestive issues . Everyone is saying menapause... I just have to come to grips with it and believe it and not think that I’m dying. Had my blood work done and everything was fine. Hope this finds you at least feeling better.
NothinforNothin kim74983
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Hi, Kim, I've been like you for just over a year. My labs came back normal and I was diagnosed with depression and anxiety but, it was hormonal/peri. I was put on two antidepressants that I did not want to take but, I can't take HRT and had to do something. I got sick from both and swore them all off after that. 6 months later no relief with anything over the counter herbs, vitamins. I went back to my doctor and was put on lexapro. I've read it helped many menopausal women. I'm on it 6 days and starting to feel better and calmer for the first time since all this started. Takes about a month to kick in. I haven't had any side effects yet but, I have hope. Just a thought. I hope you find something that helps. You are not alone and never feel that way. Others many on this site have suffered just like you when this hit but, don't sit and suffer. Find something that helps. It is trial and error and it may take time but, don't wait like I did. I should have kept trying to look for something when everything else failed. There is something that will help you. I will pray for you. Take care of yourself at this time as best you can.
Kadija1966 kim74983
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I feel the same. You are not alone. I feel like I have flu, body aches and pains. Digestive issues, My breast and ribs are painful too, I found a small lump in left breast, going for mamogram soon. Peri started in 2016 too. I get so many symptoms, too much to list. Can't sleep well, I get panic attacks in my sleep. Feeling like I'm dying. It's not easy and I know exactly how you feel. I'm scared too that I'm dying and there's something seriously wrong with me. Ive seen doctors after doctor. Last week I felt a small lump in my breast. I'm scared, ultrasound can't figure out what it is. Been sent for a mamo, hope it's nothing, I'm really depressed. To make it worse I live alone. No one for support.
I totally understand what you are going thru. Please hang in there. It will eventually pass.
viola79502 kim74983
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You are not alone, I am right there with you. I'm always afraid that Dr. isn't catching something. Worse is to look up symptoms everything leads to something terrible. I feel for you I also have horrible anxiety and I'm on edge all day the feeling doesn't leave it's always there.
Becky69 viola79502
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I agree with what you said! I need to stop looking everything up, but it doesn't help that I review medical records all day long!
viola79502 kim74983
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To all of you, It gives me such relief that I am not the only going through all the crazy stuff!!! I have also developed a crazy health anxiety, the worse part for me is the anxiety. I have it all day, scared for some reason, and I don't understand why, I wish it would go away. I also have bladder problems where I feel like i have to go to the restroom even when I just went. The more I think about it the worse it gets, but there is always something wrong, if I don't have to go pee, my stomach hurts, or I have terrible heartburn, or my side hurts, my hip hurts, my head hurts, and it goes on and on and on, and of course with my health anxiety it's something terrible always. I there with all of you, I wish you the best and hopefully we can all still communicate.
maria_03422 viola79502
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i couldn't said it better myself!! Its always something..sometimes starts in the morning with a headache done with that moves to the upper back and chest and from there stomachache ..the next day all over again or some other symptom will pop up...
health anxiety is the worst! i worry about everything!! my gyno suggested to talk see a therapist it might help to talk about it!!!
Like you that horrible fear that doesn't leave you..not able to enjoy anything, always there!!
ShariB maria_03422
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that's me right there!! Everyday I think I will get a heart attack and if I walk a far distance alone I'll fall!!!
maria_03422 ShariB
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thats me!!! i had a ct scan of the heart and arteries everything normal, but i still cant shake the thought every time i get that burning feeling on my chest that is my heart!!
like you i get nervous when im alone home!! its been almost 10 years!!! i had all the symptoms on the list and some more!!! fort
ShariB maria_03422
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do you think we'll ever get over this feeling?? I use to love staying home alone now I'm scared!!!I've stopped going out....work and home each day....retirement is heavy on my mind....doc gave me propranolol to help with the anxiety plus I'm hypertensive
maria_03422 ShariB
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I'm not sure will ever end! i thought i had 5 months and i will be done but now my period decided to show up again after 7 months! another year to go ..i was feeling pretty good the most of the day but now i got the chills dry throat itchy eyes and of course thinking the worst.
do you find yourself rehashing the past?
i do all the time, miss my children being little loving them and protecting them..
I'm tired feeling sorry for myself, friend of mine says get it out of your mind don't let it consume your life..if only was that easy!!!
ShariB maria_03422
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I think of the past all the time now....never in my wildest dreams think I'll ever feel lonely. ..I think it's more scared than lonely ...the thought of something happening and I'm home all alone. Kids are away at university and hubby working out of the country most times.
sian19469 ShariB
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It does seem so unfair when we have a bit of freedom we feel so rubbish! I feel I should be doing more, wasting my life worrying about all my ailments, but its easier said than done isn't it. I force myself to go out walking and seeing friends and do feel better after, but then another problem starts and back I go to my comfort of the house...I feel for you feeling lonely, I also think you can feel lonely when going through the menopause even with people around you and scared/anxious. I hope you find something to help you and that knowing you have been heard and that others feel the same helps in some way, sending lots of hugs xx
maria_03422 ShariB
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same here all kids moved out, my husband works long hours in the office
and im nervous to be alone ...i try to get out go run errands some shopping..
my daughter ask me if my grand daughter can spend the night and im going to a full panic attack! what if something happens to me overnight..
and when they visit and we all spending time together, I feel like two persons!!! outside talking and carrying on and inside this horrible fear that wont leave...I pray a lot these days. It doesn't help that my husband healthy man that runs every morning felt a little chest discomfort a few moths back, and ends up in the hospital and needed stents put in!!! my anxiety since then doubled!!! hopefully one day a miracle will happen we will get up and feel like the old good days xoxo
viola79502 maria_03422
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I feel for you all, I'm in the same boat, just scared all the time, especially in the morning, sometimes I just want to cry and stay in bed. I'm always so anxious and my health anxiety is through the roof.
2chr2015 maria_03422
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ugh! right there with you on the rehashing of the past. And i get so tired of being so scared of everything. I mean everything! i know this is no way to live
2chr2015 sian19469
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yes this sounds so familiar. now that the kids are gone i can travel with my husband some and as soon as it starts getting close i start freaking out about every little thing that could go wrong. and i always think I'm going to die when we get back. like seriously it doesn't make any sense but i do it anyway.
ShariB maria_03422
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Hugs and best wishes to you💗💗💗
maria_03422 2chr2015
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im the same way, but im scared something will happen to me when we are away in a strange place. we were in Italy 3 years ago and i was so anxious i didn't enjoyed anything i just wanted to come home!!
its an argument every time my husband mentions a place he would like us to visit and i find something to put a stop to all the planning!! and the times we do go you have to see me, i bring with me a whole pharmacy. call my dr and ask him to prescribe me antibiotics in case i get a bad cold i dont take them but i feel safe!! who does that??? its sad how this thing changes the way a woman looks, thinks, and feels!!!
maria_03422 viola79502
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im so sorry!! for me the scary feelings come at night...right now im laying here in bed and try to stay calm and keep bad thoughts out, but is so hard.
xoxo
ShariB maria_03422
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same here I have a medicine chest in my bag....piriton for allergies ....stemitil for dizzy head....my hbp meds and the lifesaver diazepam/ valium which I take EVERYWHERE...as long as it's there I'm good! The thought of forgetting it at home or not having it with me gets me in a frenzy
2chr2015 maria_03422
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please someone tell me this sounds familiar. we are leaving today to go out of town to see our son just for a couple of days. so I wake up at 2 am. had a bad dream that our dog was sick.
(hes been acting a little finny lately)...so i started googling it then i start googling my poblem (i had 2 periods in one month)..so i start worrying that maybe thats why the dog is acting funny lately, bc i am sick. My heart started pounding, I started shaking and felt sick. i got up and took some ativan and decided i wasn't going. well, i am up now and i am going to try to make myself go bc i told myself i wasn't going to be like this in 2020! i took more ativan. I'm going to make appt with doc (which i had planned on anyway) and then leave a message for the nurse so maybe she will put me at ease. i know its prob going to be a biopsy or get the mirena coil or ablation or hysterectomy. not anything fun. sigh...shaking and crying. what a morning
ShariB 2chr2015
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you're not alone🤗 breathe and tell yourself it's going to be alright....
ShariB
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Also when I'm hyper I chant a mantra constantly....its like meditating
maria_03422 2chr2015
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you are going to be ok!
i do the same with my cat when she acts weird i think he feels that something wrong with me and i freak out!!
last year i had my period twice a month for 4 months then nothing for 3 months .. today i feel shaky and that brain fog..
im so sorry what you going through right now..we have to go away in a month and im getting stressed from now!!
2chr2015 maria_03422
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thank you maria. That definitely makes me feel better.! did you go to the doctor when it happened?
maria_03422 2chr2015
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yes, I did ..love my OBGYN doctor..im going to him for 28 years. He really puts me at ease every time . He did a vaginal ultrasound and everything was normal .
Is nothing wrong it will be ok is part of all this crazy phase we going through.
Try the chamomile tea at night before you go to bed it will help you sleep better.. Im scared to go to sleep because im having weird scary dreams!
Feel better enjoy your time with your son xoxo
eleonora0422 maria_03422
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hi Maria
I hear u. I am the same. anytime we go away I always end up sick like ibs irritable bowel. why so it's best to stay home and watch the world of places on utube.
maria_03422 eleonora0422
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im glad im not alone Eleonora!! my husband is fed up with all the nonsense!! Last night he told me, get ready, over the summer we going to do some serious traveling!!
i didn't answer him...i cant deal with all that stress . Today i woke up with a headache and stiff shoulders!!! I cant take it.
maria_03422 2chr2015
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Hope you are having a great time with your son and feeling better xoxo
2chr2015 maria_03422
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hi maria thank you. it was a short trip. we came back early so i could go see my doctor and tell him i had 2 periods last month! i am ridiculous. he didn't feel it was necessary to do another ultrasound right now but wants me to try some progesterone and see if that doesn't settle things down. i have only been seeing him for a couple of years (we move a lot with hubby's job). but, i like him and trust him. his wife has already been through meno which helps with his understanding of what is going on. now i am coming down with a cold! I guess i am going to have to start loading up with vitamin c whenever i travel. my body doesn't seem to handle the stress of traveling anymore. i know i need to get out of my bubble sometimes though.
maria_03422 2chr2015
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Glad you ok..i have to go visit my son also..i keep putting it off!!
this weekend i babysat my grand daughter she spend the night..im so tired today lol. i have a headache and feeling sad today!!!
2chr2015 maria_03422
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hi maria. i'm sorry you are feeling sad. this is such a hard time in our lives. ((hugs))