I feel like im losing my mind.
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I literally feel like I am losing my mind, but first...
I'm 24 years old, I have a girl that loves me, I've felt with anxiety before not I don't think ever this bad. I started having dizzy spells which I thought were anxiety in the beginning of February. They came and went with my Ativan, I took them here and there. Valentines day is when it started. I started to feel really dizzy then the panic set in, I took .5 ativan and that didn't help. So I went to the ER. They told me it was anxiety and an ear infection, gave me bactrim for my ear, I took about 3 doses from it and stopped because it made me feel bad. I was still having all this anxiety and dizziness, went to the ER again twice, one said ear looked fine and it was vertigo, the other said anxiety and I was dehydrated and pumped me with fluid. So after that my gf and I drove back to Arizona (from Michigan) of course I was still having dizziness and anxiety. I got back here, still feeling the symptoms so about a week of being here I went to the ER. CT came back normal, as did the blood work, and urine test. The only thing was my heart rate was up because of my anxiety. They told me it was my anxiety and let me go. I kept having the feelings of dizziness and anxiety so I went to an urgent care doc, he did the same tests on me and told me I have labyrinthitis. So he gave me prednisone, azthromycin, and more ativan. I didn't feel comfortable taking the steroid so I didn't, I took the azthromycin even though it made me feel weird the first night I took the first dose. It was a 5 day script, 2 the first day and 1 a day after that. I felt dizzy still and anxious of course, I finshed it and felt a little better and then it came back, the dizziness hit me hard along with lack of sleep, anxiety, and weird dreams. So I went back AGAIN and he gave me the same thing but told me this time take the steroid, so I did. It hasn't been long since I finished the azthromycin so instead of taking the 2 that first day I just took one. I took the prednisone Wednesday morning and by Wednesday night I started freaking out bad. Shaking, couldn't sit still, sweating out of my hands and feet, rapid heart beat, more dizzy than what I was, it was giving me a panic attack so of course my body went into a full panic thinking I was dying so I took an ativan and talked to a family member over the phone. I calmed down and was able to sleep, still having all these weird thoughts and dreams. Then yesterday after waking up, I was feeling really really REALLY odd.. It was like I was in full panic attack STILL!! I could barely stand up without getting dizzy, I talked to a doctor and the pharmacist and both told me to quit taking Prednisone. I took a dose of azthromycin and could only get down a pb&j and a glass of water before I started freaking out again, I went and laid down and by 5 pm I couldn't take it, I took an ativan. I finally was able to calm down with the exception of feeling a little anxious. I fell asleep for a hour or so maybe less, woke up panicing a little but calmed myself down and sat up for a bit, the rest of the night I felt fine. I was able to get up and move around, still feeling a little dizzy though, made some food and drank some water. Then laid back down for a bit and fell asleep. Its not the second day since I've taken that horrible drug, I'm not feeling as bad. I woke up with a headache, and a little anxious. I tried going back to sleep, and I kept having weird mental images. I can't remember whay exactly, plus I hear chatter (not voices) and my thoughts go crazy, it freaks me out. It literally wakes me up and makes me feel like I'm losing my mind, like I'm going to end up schizophrenic and I'll never be myself again. I'm pretty terrified. I feel a little better after I relax and stay away, my head hurts and my feet and hands and sweating again. I haven't tried to get out of bed yet, I don't want a repeat of yesterday. I don't know what to do. Could this still be the steroid? The pharmacist and doc said it could take a couple days for it to leave my system. I only took 2, 10 mg tablets as it was directed. Never again will I touch it. Help?
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claudia79975 Lockerby
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Aside from this post - I keep telling people to stay away from grass as if you have a predisposition to psychiatric illness the chemicals in Maryjane can trigger psychosis/paranoia and even schizophrenia, as in my son's case. He used to smoke a lot of grass as a teen and by the age of 21 he was diagnosed with schizophrenia. He developed paranoia, anxiety, could not sleep and went downhill after that- had a complete psychotic break by age 21. He's now 35 and still a very sick young man. Sad story. I'm against legalizing grass because it can be a gateway drug and it can also trigger pyshiatric illness if one is predisposed to it.
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claudia79975 Lockerby
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I'm reading a book: "The Four Agreements" and it talks about thoughts being like black and light magic. Dark thoughts breed dark magic and light thoughts, positive thoughts breed white magic. If you fear something it will grow. If you face it down, it will diminish. Knowing you are getting relief from ativan is good, really good. Keep a journal and list all the good things in your life. Everyday add something to it. Focus on what is good and working in your life and this will help while you heal.
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