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I got high for the first time and thought I was going crazy

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Copathetic
Copathetic

I am going to preface this by saying that I have struggled with major depressive disorder and generalized anxiety for about five years now and I am currently in a much better place and have now been out of the hospital for about six months which is the longest since I first went in April of 2015

So I started smoking about two weeks ago, smoking maybe three times since. Each time I didn't get high which I realized was because I wasn't inhaling correctly.

Anyways, today I smoked about a blunt and a half when I was with my friend and I started feel a little different and then all of a sudden I felt like I was dreaming.

Things didn't seem like they were real. It was like I was dreaming and then I could focus for a second and realize I was awake and talking and then I would go right back to thinking I was dreaming. I somehow managed to go inside and upstairs to my friends bed where I curled up in a ball and didn't move for about two hours.

While I was laying there the same thing kept happening and I was definitely more aware of my hearing. My friend eventually came up and asked if I was alright and was trying to make me feel better. She started watching Netflix and I couldn't focus on the sound and I eventually put on a funny podcast that I liked but still couldn't concentrate.

At one point I tried to move closer to the wall and it felt like I was just trapped in my head and I couldn't move my body, only open my eyes. From time to time I was able to check my phone and turn my head to my friend but that was about it.

I honestly thought I was going insane because I kept thinking I was dreaming and then when I realized I want I couldn't believe this was happening and I felt like I didn't have any control over my body. I was also freaking myself out because I couldn't imagine not feeling "normal" again. I felt like I was going to feel like this forever.

After about two hours I was able to sit myself up and slowly do regular things. I tried to explain to my friend what happened but I couldn't even imaging how to put it into words and I'm still having a little trouble right now. It's been about six hours since and while I don't feel 100% it's definitely a lot better.

The main question I have is what happened because I have no idea, I've never even imagined something like that could happen. Thank you for reading this and trying to help. I'm afraid to tell my therapist because my parents don't know I smoke and my brother has had trouble with the law because of drugs in the past.

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  • sydnie96597
    sydnie96597 Copathetic

    Posted

    Hello! I have anxiety disorder and have suffered from depression in the past. I just wanted to let you know that everyone reacts differently to marijuana. Especially for their first time. A blunt and a half might have been too much. Marijuana sometimes doesn't mix well with someone who has anxiety. It helps my anxiety but I know it can definitely worsen it for some people. There are many body factors that can increase the intensity and duration of high. Imo it just seems like you got really high. I don't think there is no need to worry.

    Depending on your age your therapist would likely tell your parents. If you are an adult then tell your therapist if you'd like. If you don't plan on smoking again I don't necessarily see the point. I've had one therapist who was completely fine with the fact that I smoked marijuana. But that is very uncommon. Some therapists will see it as a problem.

  • YngTuzzy
    YngTuzzy Copathetic

    Posted

    Firstly never smoke again because if you react like that to weed man your lucky to be hoenst i got depersonlization/derealization from weed and i know its wierd but we had the exact some high affect so im just warning you and im seriose you'll regret smoking if you get Depersonliation/Derealization so please put that through your skull into your brain becuase NOBODY not even a freaking muder deserves to be so confused and dreamy in there lives man please stop smoking weed theres better things in your life than to waste time on that if you react to weed that way but if your one of those who dont react to weed like that goodluck and bruh just imagin that high being your life about 6 times weaker but still being dreamy and im your mind..welp hope i scared you enough and what im saying is true and if you think not and smoke again im sorry bro for watever you will catch but i just hope you get lucky if you waste your time...see you later buddy..🙂

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