I hate my life!!!!!!!!

Hanna, however bad you feel, please don't commit suicide. You've been through some terrible experiences. I really feel for you.

Soon other people will answer you and offer help. We're all here for you.

Love and hugs, Tess  xx

Oh my,you are in a bad way. I am not understanding why your doc isn't putting you on medication, because you certainly need it. Everyone of us on this forum knows where your coming from. Have you told your doc that you feel like ending your life. Health care providers take this very seriously. I can't wrap my head around the fact that you aren't getting help. You need to go to the emergency room, and tell them you need help. They will listen,and hopefully get you taken care of. This is no way to feel about your life. Please do this, ok. Hugs and prayers to you. 

Can you talk about all this with you Mother? Have you seen a psychiatrist? Psychologist cant give medicine. You need to an outlet to vent. They have medications to balance your chemical imbalance and that would really help you see the world for the wonderful place it can be. I am hoping your Mother is caring for your austistic brother. That should not be your sole job or responsibility. I dont know how you feel deep inside you, no one does but you ..but i can tell you as you have been diagnoses these feelings you are having are not your fault, you have not done something wrong. Its a chemical embalance causing you despair.

Hi hanna, I am so sorry that you are feeling so low and down....

Please call the SAMARATINS....TODAY....you truly need help...also as the other reply stated.....go to your nearest emergency dept....and tell them that you feel suicidal.....you must get help very, very soon....if not this evening. Then tomorrow morning.....

Your GP should have been helpful.....that is what he is paid for...

Do not leave this any longer, you need and deserve it.....

Big warm hugs for your....if feel so, so sad for you.....sending you much love....dee xxx

Dearest hanna.....I have been taking the highest dose of sertraline for 16 years...with no side effects whatsoever....I also take 5 other medications also. With no effect....

Please try the sertraline.....it helped me greatly. I was like you...it was very close to ending my life...but they helped turn my life around....please, try the medication, you desperately need something to lift your mood.....

I send you much love and understanding...you are in my heart and prayers....you can !!! Feel happy again.....dee xxxx xxxx

Hi Hanna,

I'm sorry to hear you aren't feeling well. You certainly have  a lot on your plate. As hard as it must be on one hand, on the other it may be a blessing in disguise. It's hard to jump ship when you are needed by loved ones. It also helps to have things in your life to distract and give you a sense of purpose and accomplishment. I am bipolar and suffer with suicidal tendencies. It's been a long time since I thought about it, but I will say that for me, half the problem was the amount of time I was spending thinking of myself....and all in a neg way. No matter what was happening around me I would relate it all back to my failure in some area. I don't know how any of this will help you, but my hope is that you will know you aren't alone. Remember feelings change and so do situations. Your life counts! I will talk to you if you want. God bless you. 

Hanna, my darling, I'm a Registered Nurse and I just checked the side-effects of sertraline, which I told you I'd been taking for two years.

The most common side-effect is nausea, which goes away after a few days. Most people don't get it. I certainly didn't.

Sertraline saved my life - I was suicidal, too, and actually took an overdose (of other medication) but fortunately I recovered within a few hours.

Cancer is NOT listed in the side-effects. Neither is heart disease. It DOES mention mild chest pain which is due to acidity in your stomach, and NOT going to cause a heart attack.

Please try them. They could save your life, as they did mine.

Love from Tess xxxxx

Dear Hanna

Don't list the bad things that happened in your life. Think of good memories and smile a lot even for no reason. If you can't think of anything positive, create new memories and try and meet new people. Also, the best hint I can give you it to DO SOMETHING THAT INSPIRES YOU.If it's art or music or maths. Do something you love by yourself or with other people. Find a job where you work with people ( I for example work in an institution for handicapped people and they are all so lovely and make me smile all the time! ) 

I love you and I appreciate you - Zu

P.s.: when you are in a bad space just leave me a message

HI Hanna,

How are you feeling today?

One sad thing I noted in your original post was that you have no friends.

Well, you have now - us. We're all here for you and will continue to support you for as long as it takes. We won't let you carry on feeling so terrible until you start to feel better.

Promise!

Love Tess (and the other responders.) xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx