I have almost constant violent intrusive thoughts, what should I do?

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This is sort of difficult to explain, but I will try to the best of my ability. Every day, whether be at night when I'm going to bed, or during the day when I'm doing schoolwork, I have these very violent and frightening thoughts. They are usually somewhere along the lines of "you should kill yourself right now. it's an emergency. you have to, right now", or when I'm walking down a busy road, I feel extremely compelled to jump in front of the fastest moving car that I see. When this happens, I start panicking. Sweating, shallow breathing, increased heart rate, all of it. Sometimes I just start crying because I don't know what is happening and I don't know what to do. I've never been officially diagnosed with any type of anxiety disorder, and I've been hospitalized once for a suicide attempt. I've never had these types of thoughts up until recently, and I don't know how to control them. I feel like I'm losing control of my own mind and it's terrifying. If anyone has any suggestions on what I should do, I'd very much appreciate it. Thank you.

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    I get the same thing, though I've never attempted suicice. I'm so sorry this is all happening to you. Maybe you have OCD with depression? I'm not so sure. I know I have OCD, generalized anxiety disorder, and panic disorder. I've already figured that out. I suspect I'm also bipolar, but we're not sure yet. I sound like a total basketcase. Sorry about that.. I would honestly try to schedule an appointment with your doctor to discuss this. They won't send you to a looney bin, I promise. I hope that everything works out fine. Stay strong! Feel free to private message me. I can give you my email, so you can email me when you want, or you can just message me on here. But either way, much luck to you, hon. (:
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    Hi xkaleah I suffer from ocd And I get these type of thoughts i actually just had one about killing my family i know i wouldn't do this its part of my ocd but it causes massive anxiety cause I then doubt weather i do really wont to do these things

    I even got a passing thought that I should kill myself ive never ever had thoughts like this so its ocd. Im not telling you that you have ocd but I do have these thoughts. When you get these thoughts and urges does it get stuck in your head like it keeps playing in the background of your thoughts cause if that's what its like for you it sounds like ocd or pure o. if you wont to private message me i can talk further about my ocd and maybe help you feel less alone

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      Hi Allison I get very scary thoughts about existance and I'm actually believing my thoughts to be true, I feel like my life is all a dream and not real. It's like im trapped in an unreal reality and I seem to think that my parents or anything in life don't seem real it's such a scary thought and it gives me the feeling of panic and going crazy. I find these days I can't really get out of bed much because when I'm out and about it feels there's so much fuel for my problem. I'm very scared at the minute and don't know what's wrong with me. Thanks
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      Hi.mark it sounds like you're experiencing dereilzation or depersonalization I had both last month all day everyday I thought I was trapped in some unreal world like you google depersonalization or derealization

      My feelings of being in a dream, other world has gone away i do get it during panic attacks or if I get overwhelmed but when I had it 24hours a day for a month I didn't think it would go away but it did your not going crazy I think im going nuts at times but thats what anxiety disorders do. message me back if you need more help

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    Go and see your doctor and try to get medication that works or try therapy

    Take care 

    Stay Strong

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    I'm sorry you are going through thissad. I don't get these thoughts, but do suffer from anxiety. Please see someone who specializes in this sort of thing. A counselor/psychiatrist. I had to start meds and it made a world of a difference. I have also been hospitalized for attempted suicide and it was awful!!! Please seek some help so these thoughts can stop! You shouldn't have to go through this daily.
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    Hello.  I know exactly what your talking about and how you feel.  I have been diagnosed with GAD, but I know I have some OCD.  Mine is more the obsessive intrusive thoughts, that provoke anxiety.  Even when i know that I would not act on them.  I recommend that you see your doctor about this, or seek mental health about your thoughts and feelings and they could properly diagnose you.  Then you can start learning on how to deal with the thoughts and feelings.
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