I have been depressed on and off for over 2 years now and have been non-stop thinking of suicide
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I have been non-stop thinking of suicide for the past 2 years and the only time when I'm relieved of this non-stop darkness is when I'm hanging out with friends. I think it has to do with my mother leaving me at a young age (2 months old) and I feel like I'm not seeing the world like people are supposed to see it, it's like I have a completely different perspective of the world and I hate it, I need help really badly!
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Patient DarkMoonFlame
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Hi DarkMoonFlame
We note from a recent post which you have made to our forum that you may be experiencing thoughts around self-harm. If we have misinterpreted your comments then we apologies for contacting you directly. But if you are having such thoughts then please note that you are not alone in this, and there are people out there that can help.
If you are having these suicidal thoughts then we strongly recommend you speak to someone who may be able to help. The Samaritans offer a safe space where you can talk openly about what you are going through. They can help you explore your options, understand your problems better, or just be there to listen.
Their contact details are on our patient information leaflet here: https://patient.info/health/dealing-with-suicidal-thoughts, which also offers lots of other advice on how you can access the help you may need.
If you are having such thoughts then please do reach out to the team at the Samaritans (or the other people detailed in our leaflet) who will understand what you're going through and will be able to help.
Kindest regards
Patient
stephie2 DarkMoonFlame
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Hi there
Well first things first. You need to book in with your GP and tell them about the way you feel and see if you can get some help with your mental health. If it gets really bad then you can always attend A&E if you feel that you are on the verge of suicide.
Surround yourself with your friends and even confide in them if you feel that you can trust them to be sensitive and supportive.
I am pretty sure that it was not your fault that your mother left you. The one thing I do know is that it is very rarely the child's fault and more than likely problems that were there at the time (not you).
Just hang in there and get the help that you need to begin your journey forward.
Keep us posted as to how you get on and are feeling.
gabriella44865 DarkMoonFlame
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You are not alone but it's important not to give up and to keep going as how you feel now might be completely different in the future. I think many people see the world a not so great place but these opinions are many kept out of the spot light especially from mainstream media as if everyone was depressed no one would work and the economy would crumble (that's my opinion anyway!) Start to create a list of all the things you are greatful for and remind yourself of this each day - this usually helps lift ones spirits (amongst other things)