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Hiya, this is my first post so please excuse me if it's not in the correct area! I have been seeing a psychiatrist for about 6 months now and don't seem to be getting very far.
She has diagnosed GAD, for which I take Pregabalin and do yoga. This has gotten a lot better generally speaking, however I believe I may have bipolar 2, which seems to be going ignored.
I have had 3 major depressive episodes, one at 17 years old, 20 and now at 24. They lasted 6 months, 4 months and now about 1 year. I do not really get highs, but sometimes just go a little hyper. I have experienced some mild desctructive behaivours such as maxing out my credit card and speeding while driving (I haven't felt in control, but almost like i'm being sped up and that i'm in a race and can't slow down). I'm experiencing a particularly bad bout of depression, have been feeling suicidal and just had some instances when i've been hysterically crying and unable to stop. Aside from this i've had usual depression symptoms.
My dr did mention it could be bipolar 2 but doesn't want to diagnose anything, due to the fact i've had a pretty horrific childhood, am still quite young and neither of my parents have been diagnosed with any mental health issues. My father gets depression and sleeps all day (as do I) and my mother was sectioned twice in her early 20's when she lived overseas however both have histories of substance abuse.
I saw another psychiatrist as part of a trial I agreed to take part in for my GAD and she said that she thought I had PTSD as well as Bipolar 2 in addition to the GAD but my pyschiatrist dismissed this at the time.
My Dr was thinking of putting me on a mood stabiliser or AD when I started feeling suicidal and I have been put on Mirtazapine which is just made me have horrific rages over the smallest things. I feel like I want to punch someone I am so angry. I have also put on a lot of weight in a short space of time and want to eat constntly- my appetite is insatiable!
I am seeing my dr today and just feel like i'm not being taken seriously.I think I may have had some mild hallucinations a few days ago- almost like daydream, I drifted off and then can't really remember what happened but it felt like a vivid dream. I am just in despair. I don't know if I have Bipolar 2 or not, but feel like this is what my symptoms lean towards....What do I do?!
I'm sorry if this is a bit of a mess but I feel like this is not particularly clear-cut! Any advice would be appreciated. Thanks!
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