i have recurrent bouts of depression

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hi

never posted before but feel desperate and cant speak openly to family or friends. I am 43 and have had awful recurring bouts of chronic depression since about 17. Been in hospital which wa truly awful when I was about 18 and on and off anti depressants since then. Constantly feel its a battle and so full of negativity and self hatred that I find it hard to shake it off. Cant find a reason for feeling so low - life is ok if a bit tedious but become very low very quickly. Have a good job bu now got in a mess financially as spend for no reason. hubby doesn't get the depression and feel I am ruining his life and it would be best if I just disappeared. keep thinking about how I could end all of this and not have to wake up feeling so bad and full of depair. please help I cant talk safely to anyone

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    if you have a partner he is your other half it takes two to make a whole in a marriage and if it wasnt for me talking to my husband and letting him in on the process part of the counselling and and making him aware of what was happening is the only way to get thru this, you must share how you feel to him or it will fester inside you and make you resent him, talk to him tell counselling you want him there and him to be a part of a session or two and to allow counsellor to talk to him whats going on and him to know how you really feel, dont do this alone, never, and he will understand, he married you and it must have been good and for a reason, remember those good times and try bring them back cos they are the ones who suffer too and not fair on them to go it alone not knowing either, my husband was so thrilled when he became part of the process and was able to talk to dr and help make decisons and TALK to dr and counsellor, it got us thru and if you include him i am sure he will, we are in a new phase of ou marriage now and its like finding each other all over again, as i am not same person as before neither is he as we both leaned things about each other we never shared before the blues so gotta get him onside he will understand and be glad to be a part of it instead of him being the outsider, good luck
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    It can be tough and my marriage to my wife has taken a hit, but all you can do is keep them in the loop. As long as you feel you are doing all you can then that is what is key.

    Don't do or make any rash decision that you will regret later, your in a low mood and we all need some reassurance sometimes. you will be ok and this will pass.

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    Hi

    I feel so sorry that you can't share your feelings, however I know exactly where your coming from as for me everybody thinks I'm this bubbly friendly person who has a great life, however inside insecurities, paranoia and loneliness eat away at me daily. I have a tendency when this is happening to shut myself away, which then makes me look even more unsociable. I'm constantly reading into everything everybody says, texts, or even doesn't say!! I can't bear living like this, I can't sleep for worrying about the things I either haven't done or what could could happen (mostly to my two little kids). Is this what is classified as anxiety.?

    Anyway, today I plucked up the courage to head to the doctors and was prescribed sertraline, although after reading several patient reviews I'm not sure if that's a good thing or bad...

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