i have recurrent bouts of depression
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hi
never posted before but feel desperate and cant speak openly to family or friends. I am 43 and have had awful recurring bouts of chronic depression since about 17. Been in hospital which wa truly awful when I was about 18 and on and off anti depressants since then. Constantly feel its a battle and so full of negativity and self hatred that I find it hard to shake it off. Cant find a reason for feeling so low - life is ok if a bit tedious but become very low very quickly. Have a good job bu now got in a mess financially as spend for no reason. hubby doesn't get the depression and feel I am ruining his life and it would be best if I just disappeared. keep thinking about how I could end all of this and not have to wake up feeling so bad and full of depair. please help I cant talk safely to anyone
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rae10
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UK-Ven-medicate
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Don't do or make any rash decision that you will regret later, your in a low mood and we all need some reassurance sometimes. you will be ok and this will pass.
Keepsmilingeveryone
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I feel so sorry that you can't share your feelings, however I know exactly where your coming from as for me everybody thinks I'm this bubbly friendly person who has a great life, however inside insecurities, paranoia and loneliness eat away at me daily. I have a tendency when this is happening to shut myself away, which then makes me look even more unsociable. I'm constantly reading into everything everybody says, texts, or even doesn't say!! I can't bear living like this, I can't sleep for worrying about the things I either haven't done or what could could happen (mostly to my two little kids). Is this what is classified as anxiety.?
Anyway, today I plucked up the courage to head to the doctors and was prescribed sertraline, although after reading several patient reviews I'm not sure if that's a good thing or bad...
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