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I have so many health issues to able to live rest of my life normally.
I am 28 years old. I already have mutiple health issues that I just don't think I can live up with for rest of my life.
I have bad social anxiety. I am horrible with being in group with other people and social environments usually make me nervous and uncomfortable. My social anxiety level close to mental disorder. I had brain scan and the doctor told me there's nothing wrong with it, but maybe I do have some kind of mental illness.
I also have tinnitus, which I gained when I was in military. And for that, I can't relax normally in quietness anymore and sometimes I feel like the noise in my ears are trying to drive me crazy.
I also have horrible eyesights that are getting worse at relatively fast pace. And my eyesights are probably the worst you've seen from 28 years olds. I'm really scared of my fast vision loss. And then there's blepharitis. I have blepharitis and that has made my life horrible ever since I got it. Symptoms for blepharitis showed up about 8 months ago, and ever since then, I have been having hard time focusing on reading things since my eyes are very watery or irritated. And the worst part is that blepharitis is permanent and getting rid of it would be extremely difficult. I have planned to study more at school, but due to my poor eyes I don't think it will happen.
Also my mom will soon be stop working due to her health (her health isn't as bad as mine but not healthy either), and I really need to get a job and help support her relax at home until she becomes senior and get housing from the government.
There seems to be no way out from my health. Right now I'm just being a burden to my family. My health will only get worse as I age more, and I don't know I am going to live like this. Many times I wish this is a dream and one day wake up and fins myself a healthy person just like other people.
Nothing will help me. I have seen many psychiatrists and none of them were helpful. Especially my eyes, having blepharitis and sudden vision loss feel like a death sentence for me. Sorry this sounds like you guys are just reading my personal rant, but this is really how I feel.
Are there any of you guys that feel the same way?
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