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Good morning all
I believe I began the menopause some time ago, as my periods stopped about 6 months back, and I have had the hot flushes for a while. Basically, I have had no other symptoms – or so I thought.
Just recently, someone has moved in to the flat downstairs, and I am aware of his television. It has made me resentful in a way which is bordering on the extreme. It has sent me into a pit of depression, which resulted in my going to the doctor and obtaining some anti-anxiety pills. I took half a tablet one Friday but did not realise I am supposed to take them continuously. Come Monday morning, I could not stop bursting into tears. I have had depression before but this is the worst ever. I feel disconnected from the world, I can’t see any hope for the future, everything is dark and not worth looking forward to. I normally love Christmas but I can’t see myself living until then because I am so depressed.
I have been to the doctor who confirmed she believes I am in the menopause. So what I would like to know is : why am I feeling the depression now and will HRT really relieve the amount of depression I am feeling? I have looked at other symptoms people described and I think I have been experiencing these without really knowing it. For example, I am off balance a lot of the time, I have come close to collapse sometimes – just a feeling of not being able to stand up, total exhaustion (I work two jobs so I put it down to that) and I also have the urinary incontinence – fortunately, it’s not been too bad, it’s controllable, I’m just aware of it. But this is the first time the depression has been so bad, I am having problems controlling it. I really would like to know that I will feel more as though life is worth living and hopefully, that my neighbour is not this awful person deliberately putting his telly on to annoy me. I want to reconnect with the world, I feel it’s happening around me but I’m not part of it. I keep doing stuff just to try and make a mark on it.
I honestly feel like I'm going mad
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